Hey everyone! It's Silvie! I'm at a mental breakdown state! I am in desperate need for prayer, so if ANYONE is willing to pray, I beg you to please pray for me.
I have never been so busy as I am right now! I'm in my 2nd year of grade 12, with only 2 courses this semester, but quite honestly it's more like 4. Both courses are majorly academic and have a heavy workload, leaving me with not much time for anything else other then a constant time consumption for homework. I am so stressed out about getting good marks for both classes for College/University, I need to get an 80% in both and maintain that.
As well, I am starting College and University applications. That takes SO much time and effort. I'm applying to Christian Colleges and Universities so I have to do each place seperately. So I have to download the application forms and then mail them in, and include refrences, write an essay of why I want to go and why I'm deserving and collect a bunch of things that the Colleges and Universities need to have to look over and see for applying students. The list is HUGE and it's so majorly time consuming, and I need to get through it all, as fast as I can because I have to focus on getting good marks for school, I can't let them slip! Plus the applications, I'm also looking into scholarships and financial aid as I'll need help with finances since I wont have the money to go with out it. I'm really stressed out I'll be in huge debt and that the money issue is going to hang over my head.
As well, I am applying for Big Sisters in my area. I'm looking at volunteering and helping out with some of the needy kids in the area, and being a mentor to them. But the application for that is a lengthy process too and I need to go through that and I'm praying that I can get that opportunity and really make a difference in kid's lives.
I'm also helping run the Christian group at my High School. Right now I'm running the Purpose Driven Life novel, and were doing a course on it, so that's a lot of time and effort. Not to mention I'm out at Small Group Bible Study, and Youth group every week. Plus I'm looking at starting a Women's Group for the girls that need fellowship at my church. And I also have dance class on Monday nights which I have to take into account too. I work every weekend, Saturday and Sunday, all day so I only have nights free. I haven't spent much time just hanging out with friends lately due to my business, and my boyfriend and I have been quite distant as well due to all of this chaotic business. My parents and I are short with each other as I'm run off my feet, and they are getting overwhlemed by that too. And through all of this I'm loosing sight of God, I'm finding it hard to connect with him. I'm always stressed out, I'm loosing sleep, I'm not completing homework, I'm getting sick, I'm having nightmares, Satan is really getting a hold of my life through this chaoticness.
PLEASE pray that God takes control of my life and helps me simplify it. I also have SO much more coming up with Christmas, and I have to help clean the house and decorate with my Mom, plus were doing renovations around the house. Plus I have to start shopping for everyone and I want to get my shopping done beforehand.
Anyways, the bottom line is I have AN OVERWHLEMING amount of things going on in my life! Please pray that God helps me to stay motivated, committed, focused and balanced. Pray that he helps me find peace in him, and that he's helping me through everything and that I will have faith that I'll eventually over-ride this wave. Thank you SO much for reading, and if you'd pray I'd appreciate it more then you know.
I have never been so busy as I am right now! I'm in my 2nd year of grade 12, with only 2 courses this semester, but quite honestly it's more like 4. Both courses are majorly academic and have a heavy workload, leaving me with not much time for anything else other then a constant time consumption for homework. I am so stressed out about getting good marks for both classes for College/University, I need to get an 80% in both and maintain that.
As well, I am starting College and University applications. That takes SO much time and effort. I'm applying to Christian Colleges and Universities so I have to do each place seperately. So I have to download the application forms and then mail them in, and include refrences, write an essay of why I want to go and why I'm deserving and collect a bunch of things that the Colleges and Universities need to have to look over and see for applying students. The list is HUGE and it's so majorly time consuming, and I need to get through it all, as fast as I can because I have to focus on getting good marks for school, I can't let them slip! Plus the applications, I'm also looking into scholarships and financial aid as I'll need help with finances since I wont have the money to go with out it. I'm really stressed out I'll be in huge debt and that the money issue is going to hang over my head.
As well, I am applying for Big Sisters in my area. I'm looking at volunteering and helping out with some of the needy kids in the area, and being a mentor to them. But the application for that is a lengthy process too and I need to go through that and I'm praying that I can get that opportunity and really make a difference in kid's lives.
I'm also helping run the Christian group at my High School. Right now I'm running the Purpose Driven Life novel, and were doing a course on it, so that's a lot of time and effort. Not to mention I'm out at Small Group Bible Study, and Youth group every week. Plus I'm looking at starting a Women's Group for the girls that need fellowship at my church. And I also have dance class on Monday nights which I have to take into account too. I work every weekend, Saturday and Sunday, all day so I only have nights free. I haven't spent much time just hanging out with friends lately due to my business, and my boyfriend and I have been quite distant as well due to all of this chaotic business. My parents and I are short with each other as I'm run off my feet, and they are getting overwhlemed by that too. And through all of this I'm loosing sight of God, I'm finding it hard to connect with him. I'm always stressed out, I'm loosing sleep, I'm not completing homework, I'm getting sick, I'm having nightmares, Satan is really getting a hold of my life through this chaoticness.
PLEASE pray that God takes control of my life and helps me simplify it. I also have SO much more coming up with Christmas, and I have to help clean the house and decorate with my Mom, plus were doing renovations around the house. Plus I have to start shopping for everyone and I want to get my shopping done beforehand.
Anyways, the bottom line is I have AN OVERWHLEMING amount of things going on in my life! Please pray that God helps me to stay motivated, committed, focused and balanced. Pray that he helps me find peace in him, and that he's helping me through everything and that I will have faith that I'll eventually over-ride this wave. Thank you SO much for reading, and if you'd pray I'd appreciate it more then you know.
for you. 
