I'm saved!!

That's right! I was saved last night by the Lord Jesus Christ!

When I was 8 or 9 I was "saved" - but since then so many things have happened. I was even an atheist at one point. A few months back something started slowly reeling me into Christianity again, and that was what started this road.

Since I made that turn on my life road, I haven't thought I was saved. I mean, I was young, I didn't know quite what I was doing. All I knew was that I prayed with the pastor with other kids during VBS and I wasn't going to Hell - if I even knew there was such a place!

Last night I listened to some Flyleaf (Christian rock band), Prince of Peace, and He Reigns. I blew out the candle and was ready to sleep. But something was tugging at me. I got all excited and was singing He Reigns by newsboys in my head ("And all God's people singing 'Glory, glory! Hallelujah! He reigns! He reigns!'"). I couldn't lay still. I couldn't sleep. I was thinking of calling Aunt Bec and getting saved.

After some debating, I called Aunt Bec and Uncle Allen's home phone. No answer. I was like "Eh... whatever." and tried to go to sleep again. Nope. It wasn't happening. So I tried calling again. No answer. I wanted to do this right, so I laid back down with every intention of sleeping and getting saved tomorrow. Or maybe put it off until I was in Oak Hill again and could go to the altar, like I have been called to do so very often recently; every single time I ignored the call.

Nah. It wasn't happening! I was still excited and couldn't sleep. I flipped through some Christianity books I have knowing one of them had the sinner's prayer in the introduction some where or another. Now that I am thinking about it, I didn't look in the one book I think it was in - "Evidence for Christianity" my Aunt Bec gave me not too long ago. I also looked up Romans 10:9 to make sure I was going to do it right.

Not finding the sinner's prayer, I threw some clothes on and came in the living room at 3 AM (I started trying to sleep at 2:30 AM) to look it up. Mom asked what I was doing. I lied and told her that I was looking up a Bible verse real quick. I feel bad for that now. I haven't lied in ages... but I did then. When I tell her I was saved last night when she wakes up this evening, I will apologize to her.

Anyways, I memorized the gist of it, went in my room again, locked the door, and sat on my bed... still debating. I would lean forward to get on my knees on the floor and get very excited, but then I'd change my mind, telling myself I wasn't ready for such a commitment. After second thoughts, third thoughts, fourth, and so on, I knelt down beside my bed and prayed.

I prayed the sinner's prayer, asking for forgiveness and for God to help me not to sin, that His Son Jesus Christ died on the cross to wash away all my sins and rose from the dead, that He is my Lord and Savior, and He created me and I will worship Him forever and ever. Amen.

I turned off the light, hopped in bed. I forgot to unlock my door, so I got up, unlocked it, then flopped on my bed again. I was very excited and happy - I was saved! No more worrying when I went to sleep at night! No more worrying when I was in a car driving down the road! And now I was saved for the youth mission trip in two days, too! What a blessing all of this is!

I fell asleep finally at about 3:30 AM. This whole ordeal from the conviction I had at 2:30 AM until I prayed, was saved, and went to be, lasted for about an hour - and oh how that time flew!

I thank the Lord that I am saved by His mercy and grace. How great is God!

Thanks for the loving replies, all!