I'm Manic

[4givenme]

I love this forum, where else can I let out my feelings and I know others will understand. Just a few days ago, I asked for prayer b/c I wanted to end it all b/c I was so depressed and now I cant slow my brain down, its going so fast it scares me, I think its going to run right out of my head, no ones talking fast enough for me, I'm not moving fast enough for even me, all I can do is sit and smoke b/c I cant prioritize what to do first, its better than being depressed, but this has its drawbacks too.

 

[lemonflavor]

Please pass the mania over here.

Glad to hear you're at least out of depression. I'm still there but am due to come out of it in about 47 hours.

 

[wonderwaleye]

I love this forum, where else can I let out my feelings and I know others will understand. Just a few days ago, I asked for prayer b/c I wanted to end it all b/c I was so depressed and now I cant slow my brain down, its going so fast it scares me, I think its going to run right out of my head, no ones talking fast enough for me, I'm not moving fast enough for even me, all I can do is sit and smoke b/c I cant prioritize what to do first, its better than being depressed, but this has its drawbacks too.

Dear 4givenme

It's great to fly high but the crash landings really hurt and can be deadly.

Get to the doctor NOW!!!

We don't want to lose such a beautiful red head with a heart!


Please take care of yourself.



Together we stand under the LOVE of JESUS!


XEven though you can't see Him, GOD is there!O
( click on the X and move to the O ) ( then feel who is around you )

 

[angelkiss]

I've learned that in my manic episodes that's when I usually do something I regret. Now, when I get manic, I see the doc asap. The first bad manic episode I had, I took off from KY to TX without telling anyone I was going. I didn't even contact anyone for two months. Just so happened I was at a park after hours (Not realizing they had a curfew) and someone called in my car. The police arrived and asked for my license and when they ran them through, there was a missing person report out on me. When the reality hit me of what I'd done, it threw me for a loop! I talked with the KSP, and they were just about two days away from presuming me dead. I called my parents right away without any way of explaining my actions. The horrible stories they had to listen to about their daughter were heart-wrenching, not to mention I was on the news, and my face was plastered across numerous counties on missing person posters.
If you haven't seen your doc yet, I would advise you to asap. You're in my prayers. God Bless!

 

[4givenme]

Unfortunatly I've mellowed out already, now I'm just raally tired, I too get urges to take off, especially at night for some reason, but I'm a single mom of 3 young children 9, 7 and 4 so I fight this illness tooth and nail most days just to keep my kids cause I know one slip and someone will deem me unfit or thier alcoholic father will think I'm unfit. Some days I wish I could just go with my hearts desire but the battle is so tough for me, I cant.

 

[lemonflavor]

I didn't mean to be flippant regarding mania in my earlier post. I only get hypomanic (and med changes coming to hopefully help stabilize) and often overlook what people go through with true mania. I hope 4givenme is safe and is in a better spot than depression.

 

[wonderwaleye]

Unfortunately I've mellowed out already, now I'm just really tired, I too get urges to take off, especially at night for some reason, but I'm a single mom of 3 young children 9, 7 and 4 so I fight this illness tooth and nail most days just to keep my kids cause I know one slip and someone will deem me unfit or their alcoholic father will think I'm unfit. Some days I wish I could just go with my hearts desire but the battle is so tough for me, I cant.

Dear 4givenme



Get to a doctor or the health dept. now while you are BLESSED TO DO SO.



If you are not under meds you will be struck again and again.



Let it go neglected and look forward to greater frequency of the attacks with more maina.


One real bad episode and goodbye kiddies!


This is not a choice disease. You take care of it or it takes control of you!!




A doctor told me if this is neglected you can look forward to spending a lifetime in a mental ward or prison.



From what I understand that choice is just a flip of the coin or better said just a flip of the brain.



Worth taking a chance?


Odds are much better than the lottery.


When your manic there ain't nothin lie winnin!!! ( manic talk )



WE ALL LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU TO REMEMBER:




XEven though you can't see Him, GOD is there!O
( click on the X and move to the O ) ( then feel who is around you )

 

[Alive again]

Praying for you !!!