im losing it

[Cutie_girl]

hi
i have been cutting my self for about two years now and it keeps getting worse i am really depressed and i see a counserler every week but she dont no that i cut my self cos if i tell her she will tell my mum and last time i told my mum she freaked out so i dont no what to do keep cutting my self really bad i have it stuck in my head and i cant stop i just want to kill my self but i no i cant help i dont no what to do

 

[goldenviolet]

sweetheart, precious and lovely child of God. you are reaching out, so you are doing just what you should. so much hurt and heaviness is on your heart; in times like this, we need to have fellowship with people able to support us. can you tell the counsellor what is going on, and your fears about your parent's reactions? can you tell her about the verbal discouragement and abuise?
sweetheart, keep reaching out. you are very valuable to God, and very special to me. your name is written accross my heart.

 

[luv4godremains]

hun, I'm really sorry, hang in there, yuor mum freaked cos she carse about you, she doesn't want to see you hurt, it hurts her to see you in pain and she just wants to help you! I hope that you find a way to sort it out, and maybe even tell your councellor, because even though she will tell your mum, your mum will only do her best to help you, and I know it will be hard, but at least then she would know, and you wouldn't have to keep hiding it.

 

[BlackRain]

there's an awesome sense of freedom when you tell someone. if you're hurting this badly, that you want to die...you need to tell someone. it's not a matter of want anymore. if you don't want to tell your mom, tell a friend. friends are good about not saying anything about it unless you bring it up. have that friend hold you accountable. also, if you're oldere than 18 your counselor doesn't have to tell your mom. i think if you want her to keep it secret, she has to. hang in there. i pray that you'll start feeling better!!

 

[4childofgod]

Cutie girl,
Why is your counselor talking to your Mom? It should be confidential you should be able to tell your counselor anything and everything? I'll pray for you!

 

[Loopi]

4childofgod - i think its rule of thumb that any thing that may potentially endanger a life must be told to the parents of a minor when they are seeing a counsellor. Like if my counsellor knew stuff about me then it would go back to my mum if my counsellor thought it had a possibility of endangering me or someone else.

Cutie_girl - i have been in and out of the situtation you are in, the feelings too. Im the same age as you, so if you wanna pm me or anything to chat then feel free, i may not be amazing help but ill do the best i can. Please keep talking to ppl, be it your friends, youth leader, parents, whatever, it'll help you!! Talking is a great release.

 

[always_hope]

4childofgod - i think its rule of thumb that any thing that may potentially endanger a life must be told to the parents of a minor when they are seeing a counsellor. Like if my counsellor knew stuff about me then it would go back to my mum if my counsellor thought it had a possibility of endangering me or someone else.

Cutie_girl - i have been in and out of the situtation you are in, the feelings too. Im the same age as you, so if you wanna pm me or anything to chat then feel free, i may not be amazing help but ill do the best i can. Please keep talking to ppl, be it your friends, youth leader, parents, whatever, it'll help you!! Talking is a great release.

Yes, always keep talking!!

 

[ChasingADream]

Cutie girl,
Why is your counselor talking to your Mom? It should be confidential you should be able to tell your counselor anything and everything? I'll pray for you!

You're right. It is usually confidential unless he/she has a valid reason to believe that you are going to (or did) harm yourself or another person. Trust me. My counselor told and that's the reason she gave me.

Cutie girl, I hope you find some support here. There are lots of people who are suffering in similar ways. Usually it's the people you would least expect. It's hard to keep it secret from everyone because you pretty much know they won't understand. A lot of us here do understand so I hope it will ease your mind to talk with us and hopefully you won't feel alone.