I'm leaving the forums!

[dabro]

Guys thanks for all the help but I don't think I need to be here any longer. My obsession about hell and Judgment is just to much for me to handle. It's getting to me to write it down as asking for reassurence is locking me into this pattern of thinking. IDK if I'm dead what can I do if I am who cares right? Really theres not much more I can do here and just keep me in your prayers.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

I'm sorry you feel like you need to leave, but I can totally understand if you feel it is reinforcing your OCD to participate right now.

I do hope you will return when you can and participate again in the future. Take very gentle care of you in the mean time.

 

[Criada]

I'll be praying, brother.

Hope that one day you are able to come back.
God bless and keep you.

 

[shelovesChrist]

dabro . you know whats best for you . but to answer your question, sincerely, we care and Jesus . praying for you always .

 

[Kitty.]

I will be praying for you Feel free to return anytime. We will all miss you!

 

[dabro]

Guys I'm just losing my faith. Seriously. It just sounds more discerning to just walk the plank then to go on in this pain. Not suggesting anything I'm just wore out from fighting the good fight. I was reading Peter and How he says rejoice for you are counted blessed to suffer and be rejected for Christ. I had another dream that I turned Muslim. I don't know where this influince is coming from it's just getting old having what I call dreams that have the same theme so changed up. They all revolve around losing faith. Almost like God has left me. The more I try to pull towrads Him the farther He pushes me away. IDK anymore?:/

 

[Criada]

I lost my faith last year... it is a very bleak and frightening ecxperience.
Thanks to God's grace and the prayers of good friends, I am finding my way back - and I pray that you will too.
If you need an understanding listener, feel free to PM me anytime.

 

[seajoy]

Dabro - people who have OCD don't lose their faith because of thoughts and dreams. Remember not to give creedence to your thoughts. I think it's a great step that you are realizing that you are asking for reassurance too much. Before I did therapy, I got real bad like you are going through right now. God's strength is made perfect in your weakness. Just think about how strong He is right now in your life. Disregard the thoughts. Always remember "Oh well, that's the way it goes."

 

[dabro]

Now this is just getting ridiculius. I keep having Nightmares every single night. What chemical imbalance Am I Having? There is also a war in my Spirit waged against these two men of Balaam. I'm tired of there selfishness and frankly I think there the problems. You can't go on and tell me my dreams don't mean that there isn't some static charge going on betweent the Holy Spirt and these demons that can only scare me while I'm asleep. I may be obsessing maybe not IDK? It's just getting old real fast and I don't know what to do?

 

[seajoy]

Call your doctor. You need some help.

 

[dabro]

Calling my doctor is not an option. Just saw them today. I can't get my med's until tommorrow. There only into medicine not therapy.

 

[seajoy]

Calling my doctor is not an option. Just saw them today. I can't get my med's until tommorrow. There only into medicine not therapy.

Then go to an ER. You need help. You are all out of sorts, dabro. I tried many doctors until I got the right one. The ER could steer you to someone new.

 

[kaykay9.0]

Praying for you, Dabro, that you get whatever need to help you.