I have days like that as well, and there are times it drives me to places in my mind, I absolutely do not want to go. There are very few of us, our age group, that are single and not of our own accord nor desire. And you look around at church, and see row upon row of grey or silver haired people, intermingled with mere children, and you think to yourself, how on earth is there going to be any possibility of finding a bible believing, church going spouse, out of this crowd. You observe in the world, and you see the the people our own age, living very shallow, worldly lives, but hey, they seem to have plenty of wealth, all of them driving very expensive cars, having awesome jobs, wearing very nice clothing, having families in tact, they are with. And it doesn't seem fair.
What adds onto it, as a man, we are hard wired to labor, if we are not working, it's a huge part of who we are taken away, and it diggs into our self esteem and self worth. You look around the work force, and see so many retired on the job, brain dead idiots, and they are handed everything on a silver platter, and it's beyond frustrating. We look around and see so many guys treat their gals and family like crapola, taking them so much for granted, and wonder why you, who would cherish that in all ways, are still left in the cold.
And then, the joy of being shoved to the back of the line of the social circle of friends, because they all have someone they are dating, or what not, and you are the lowest priority on their list. It's like clockwork, I'll be hanging out, they tell me they found someone, and I'm going, well, it was nice to have a close friend for a while, too bad it has to come to an end.
So, yeah, don't feel like you are at all alone with this, coming from a 44 y.o. male that has never been married, without anything wrong physically, spiritually, or mentally, and very devout, but still single, we do exist believe it or not. So, don't lose hope here, but, keep your eyes open and increase your awareness about the people you fellowship with, chances are you will find my equivalent at yours, at the same time, know that most of us see gals with their children, attending services, and think, they are married and their husband just isn't showing up, which is typical.
