I'm in gods hands now

[daisythepug]

I am a 29 female with one child and a fiance. about a year ago a doctor diagnosed me with adult add. I ignored it until about 6 moths ago when I started to cope with my new self and the changes I needed to make. Aside from being unorganised I suffer with great internal emotional depression. I feel dead. I feel like a walking body full of saddness. Not knowing I had ADD until now has lead me down many wrong paths in my life. I said goodbye to my old self but can't find my new self. The medication I take is causing me to think of suicide. I know thats not the answer but How can I live when I am filled with such a demon of dark thoughts. I love my lord and in the past few months I truly believe he is looking over me. So please pray for others like me and know that they aren't alone. No one diserves to feel this way.



Sincerly,
always crying

 

[crossrunner]

Sweetie... You are right..you ARE in God's hands and He will take care of you. Continue to place your trust in Him. Keep in His word and pray, pray, pray! I will pray that God will fill you with His peace. You are loved.
cr

 

[All4THALORD]

Hello. First of all, i really feel your pain in my heart because i have just grown out of adult ADD and i know the feelings. Whenever i had to go through the changes i just relied on Jesus Christ to get me through it. And the devil is always there it seems like to throw in those evil thoughts. But in James 4:7 it says, "So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Do this and all the evil thoughts of suicide will be gone. You just have to yield to God and and let Him demolish the thoughts.And in all you do, don't forget God!
If you ever need to someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to PM me.
May the LORD truly bless you and keep you under His hand of protection.

 

[All4one]

Daisy,

Rely on the Lord. Remember that Paul suffered a mild form of depression as well. Depression is from the devil but try this and see if it works. When depressed focus completely and utterly on God and see if satan can take that feeling away. I went through a mild form of depression at one time where EVERYTHING seemed so useless, I read Ecclesiastes and felt it bumping in my heart but I noticed one thing through that time in my life. No matter what worldly things seemed useless to me, God never did. In fact I felt SO CLOSE! It amazed me and scared me at the same time. Remember Daisy that Christ bore stripes on His back for you. I believe in Isaiah the NLT says it like this... "While he bore the stripes we were being healed."

Hope and Love in One!
All4one

 

[daisythepug]

Thanks to all that took the time to read my message. You don't know how much that means to a person like me. All my life I place trust in people only to have it broken. I don't have one true friend. I try to keep my hope up for the future but even that seems like a train reck in progress because of my illness. I pray for emotional stability that I never beleive I had. I pray for my mom who is an unteated adult with ADD because she can't aford to get help. I know God put me here to do what I love and that is to take care of people with disabilities. I am so confused and just want this negative energy out. When I was five I remember going to school (st peters) and thought it was the best. My first day I heard about jesus and how he died for us. I was so scared that I never wan't to die.... I wonder what happened. I wish I was five again. Thanks to all that listen and please pray for all those children that don't get the right guidance growing up. Please make them strong enough to see the good in people. Everyone has some good. I hope tomorrow brings a brighter day.

crying again

 

[crossrunner]

Its people like you, dear one, that make me so happy that God called me to teach children with disabilities. He sure has been showing me a lot lately that He wants me to continue with my job although its very very tough (I teach 6 middle school boys with autism) and many times I have thought of quitting...but this is not my job but God's. And He has used your post as one more "sign" for me to see that He wants me in this job for longer. I can't tell you how wonderful that makes me feel...to know that God is really using me....and just think...He used YOU to tell me that!!! God bless you dear.

Your friend,
cr

 

[brightlights]

daisy, trust in god and he will deliver you from anything.

isiah 40:31

31 but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.

 

[joebobned]

Remember that He loves you.

Continue working with the disabled! You are instrumental in God's plan when helping those who need you!

It is never to late to change when you desire repentance.

 

[brinny]

Daisy, God has a reason for all that we go through even if we can't see it at the time. It's at these times that He works ferociously to bring all circumstances into play to develop us as His instruments. It's a bit like boot camp, and facing the unknown. Yet He is there so close to us. Through these experiences that try us to our very souls, God hones us. There's a purpose in it. He is honing you to glorify Him. He promises us a future and a hope. And He is surely forming yours and blazing a path before you as we speak.

You mentioned having a heart to work with the disabled. Your heart is this way possibly because of your own experiences. How the world needs you! God is doing a good work in you and He WILL complete it. Hang in there.

Father You know Daisy's struggles. The uncertainty, the feeling alone, the oppressive forces that weigh heavily upon her, the confusion. Be sp present with her that she has no doubt that You are with her and that You are in control of all that comes across her path. Light her way. Grant her the clarity to see Your hand in all of it. Grant her the peace and joy that only You can give. Thank You for all that You have done, are doing, and will do in Daisy's life, in Yeshua's name, amen.

 

[mandapanda445]

Dear father-
Please help Daisy break free from the mental prisons she is in. Lay your hand on her and help her to heal. With your glorious gift of life you set us free, so let her live like she wants to. Give her the strength to get through trials and tribulations in her life. Let this experience strengthen her spirit. In Jesus's name I pray. Amen.