I'm Falling

[Daysoni]

Typing this post I feel so weak. I had almost one full month of not being in all of my symptoms. Iwant to be strong. I want to report good and be able to help others that are hurting. To be honest right now I'm not strong. I'm hurting and don't have anyone friend wise to talk to. To be comforted by. I don't like to be comforted that often. The truth is that because of my up bringing I don't like touch it scares me. But right now I feel weak because I just want someone here to hold me and hug me and tell me I'm going to be ok. The doctors and counselors have asked alot. And are now in some disagreement about some stuff. One is that one of my med's has a side effect called anorexia. Something I've battled with most of my life. And because of other medical things that they have discovered they want to change my med's. I told my counselos today that I'm done with the doctors. There is just somuch going on right now in my life. I feel like a super ball bouncing and bouncing never stopping. I want my control back and to be numb again. I don't want to feel this pain or emotions. I don't know how to do this except for going back to my disorder. When I'm there I can at least some what stand myself. Right now I can't look in a mirror or pass by some thing that will cast off a reflection and I'm having a rough time coming out in public or wanting to be with people because I'm afraid they to will see the hidiness that I see. I just don't want to feel. So I guess that I could use some prayers or advice. I'm just not sure...........

 

[goldenviolet]

first sweet sister, celebrate the month you have had many things to feel blessed about. talking with you i see you are blessed. what you are going through is actually quite normal. it's a need for fellowship and encouragement. the need is to help you see your accomplishments. you think it's the disorder you want to go back to/give into, but it's not. it's the pull and feeling that it might solve some of your emptiness feelings.
let us build you up! let scripture be sealled across your heart to remove the hurts and temptaions you are exsperiancing. you aren't alone. God loves you, i love you, your son loves you, and you are of great value to your church. you are precious. http://www.christianforums.com/t2378334-you-are-gods-little-butterfly.html

a thread of encouragement you just may enjoy!

Dear Father, thank you for bring this dear sister to us. to me. she is lovely. Father, please help her to feel control to manage the struggles she is faced with daily... and to feel you in control daily. Father, help us to build her up, and provide the fellowship she needs until she is able to reach out to others in her congregation. Dear Lord, please help her keep a clear focus on getting filled with your word, and building her armor and relationship with you. Father, i ask that in her need you provide many blessings through others to build her up... and that she return these things to her son, and bless him to your glory. Father, you know everything about her, and her needs. thank you for calling us your children, and caring for us like your children. we praise and honor your will. please take our unwillingness, our willfulness, and shape us to walk in your will. thank you for being faithful and pacient, and merciful to us. in Jesus name, amen.

i want you so much to have success. you can do it.

 

[cruztacean]

I once read an analogy comparing Christian fellowship to a charcoal fire. By itself, a single bricket of charcoal will not burn. But pile it with other brickets, and they burn hot. We need each other.

The Bible also talks about Christ's church being a body consisting of many parts. In conclusion, the passage says "The parts that seem to be weaker are necessary." Another thought on the subject of weakness: The weaker we are, the more we depend on Christ who is our real strength. Think of that old hymn.

Learning to lean
Learning to lean
I'm learning to lean on Jesus
Finding more power than I ever dreamed
I'm learning to lean on Jesus

As a child I was abused at home and rejected by my peers at school. I had no friends, no one to turn to. It was then that I discovered God. Had my childhood been wonderful, I might have been so satisfied with this world that I wouldn't have looked for the next one. Thus Christ used my weakness to draw me to Him. Let Him do the same for you, and you will find tremendous strength to fight any battle.