I'm down again, hence this pointlessness

[OceanAngel]

Well, I dont even why I'm doing this.

I just feel the need to type something, my new close friend is leaving this week, altho' leaving is a wrong way to put as we'll keep in touch and I hope we do.

But I feel so listless.

I look around and see stuff I've bought and it's meaningless to me.

My whole life is a lie, I've tried so badly to fit in and I dunno.

I hate myself and everything about me is wrong.

With my friend's help, I hate myself less.

I'm gonna go back to doing nothing and getting 'ignored' by my 'friends'

I feel so messed up. scared and lonely.

I'm a chameloen, I just try to fit in and I'm never me, ever.

With her, I'm finally finding myself.

I'm gonna try to find what/who I am but it's gonna be hard.

I hate this life I've got.

sorry for going on but I'm typing as I think.

 

[Soulwings]

I like where you said, "I'm gonna try to find what/who I am but it's gonna be hard."

You're right. It will be hard. But it will be worth it, luv. Because you aren't what you think you are. You're much more. You're a child of God. You're priceless and precious and amazing. He died for YOU.

I'm sorry that at this point things are so rough for you. But they will get better. Strive to make them better, and even if you don't feel strong enough, Abba has strength enough for two He'll be right there with you. This I know from personal experience.

And after all, I'm only a PM away.

 

[OceanAngel]

Thank you.

I know

 

[burn97]

OceanAngel

" No temption has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it." 1Corinthians 10:13

I know how hard depression is. As your going through it, it seems like it will never end, but it does OceanAngel. Trust in the Lord, as the verse says, He will never let you go through anything that you cannot bear. We see the weakness in ourselves, He sees the strength. You will get through this, just lean on Him. Become dependant upon Him. Let this time be a time where you grow, or as you said, find yourself, but don't do it alone.
God Bless sister.

 

[Hidden face_Hurting heart]

Hey Ash, hon! (big hug!) I know things are rough right now. remember I love you and I accept you *just* as you are, even when you're not quite sure yourself!

 

[OceanAngel]

burn 97 Thank you for those words

HfHH Thank you hun, yeah I know you do, you're one of the too few.