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FeedThePoor
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Over the last few months ive been having a really hard time just getting by from day to day without wanting to just break down and cry in the middle of what ever activity im doing. I work at a job that requires lots of interaction with people and its becoming more and more excruciating just to smile and say "hello" to someone. I despise getting into verbal conversations with other people. Most people I meet take advantage of my shyness and try to harass me because of it. Everything is such a joke to everyone else but not to me. I feel tired all the time and I never feel good enough to do anything i want to do. My creativity seems to have vanished and no matter how hard I try at anything i just seem to fail. Everyday seems the same to me and no matter how hard I try to diversify, it remains exactly the same. It feels like the world around me is just a ploy to drive me insane. I hate cheerful people that try to see the good in the most horrible of things. I hate the comic relief these people throw out at me, they dont really listen to what I have to say. They just wait for their turn to talk and try to make a stupid witty remark. 
