I'm done with this.

[Nienna_Lady_of_Tears]

I feel so far behind in this curse called life that I'm not sure I'll ever catch up. I was not taught how to drive because I was a strong willed child anyway and they did not want to let me do anything that would make me independent of them. Then too, a psychiatrist had told them that I would never reach past the emotional age of 15 and they hung onto that as an excuse to make all of my life decisions for me, because what 15 year old can make good decisions? My math and science level is about 5th grade and I have struggled to no avail to get past this. I do have a valid learning disability but my mom has the paperwork on that and has refused countless times to give it to me so that I can start to get help. With no job experience and no driving ability it took me three and a half years since I got out of the family cult (patriarchal/Quiverfull movement, you look it up) to get any sort of employment, and then I make about $4.38 an hour by the time you count my tips, that is when I'm working. My boss screwed me out of my job this summer. Supposedly I can have it back in August but I haven't been able to find anything else because she didn't give me any notice that this was going to happen. This is a college town; there's a hiring period in the beginning of May in anticipation of students going home, but I wasn't laid off until the middle of May when all the other positions in town were filled. I just feel so very far behind in life. I'm beginning to think that I must have sinned terribly in some other realm to be sent here and have to deal with this. In other words, life is not a gift, it's purgatory.


I'm done with this.

 

[Winter]

((hug))

Listen, at the end of the day what matters most is who you are in your heart. You've been doing the best you can, be proud of that. Despite all the setbacks you have the courage to get up each day and try.

Pray that the Lord will help you through this. There are many resources out there that can help you find work and assist you with skills.

Most importantly, don't lose hope ((hug)).

 

[GreatSpeckledBird]

I have seen God do amazing things when we put our total trust in Him. He can open doors, give you special gifts and talents, etc but you have to ask Him then trust Him to provide. you'll be amazed but you have to recognize your total dependence on Him. If you trust Him, I promise, He will make a way for you where there is no way.

 

[TravelerFarAwayFromHome]

I feel so far behind in this curse called life that I'm not sure I'll ever catch up. I was not taught how to drive because I was a strong willed child anyway and they did not want to let me do anything that would make me independent of them. Then too, a psychiatrist had told them that I would never reach past the emotional age of 15 and they hung onto that as an excuse to make all of my life decisions for me, because what 15 year old can make good decisions? My math and science level is about 5th grade and I have struggled to no avail to get past this. I do have a valid learning disability but my mom has the paperwork on that and has refused countless times to give it to me so that I can start to get help. With no job experience and no driving ability it took me three and a half years since I got out of the family cult (patriarchal/Quiverfull movement, you look it up) to get any sort of employment, and then I make about $4.38 an hour by the time you count my tips, that is when I'm working. My boss screwed me out of my job this summer. Supposedly I can have it back in August but I haven't been able to find anything else because she didn't give me any notice that this was going to happen. This is a college town; there's a hiring period in the beginning of May in anticipation of students going home, but I wasn't laid off until the middle of May when all the other positions in town were filled. I just feel so very far behind in life. I'm beginning to think that I must have sinned terribly in some other realm to be sent here and have to deal with this. In other words, life is not a gift, it's purgatory.


I'm done with this.

Lord

I really don't know how to help this sister in Christ, but You do

please help and give her what You know she needs.

in Jesus name

Amen

 

[Tigger45]

Life is not a race that we are measured against one another. That is the world's view to keep us on the proverbial squirrel cage. No matter what we do somebody else is better then we are. The funny thing is almost every time someone does reach the height of their respective talent they inevitably crash. Or if you spend any meaningful time with them you'll find they have struggles of their own in other of life's arenas. Life really is a journey and when we stop judging ourselves by other's accomplishments we have time to look around and smell the roses. Life is short it's time to get sniffing. That's when we start enjoying life. I hope this helps.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, sister.
Don't give up

 

[RuthD]

I'm sorry your feeling so poorly. Please pray to Jesus for guidance. I know when I do it always helps me. I prayed a lot today and today has been good for me. Prayer works wonders. God bless you.

 

[Noxot]

underneath the layers of lies of this world is the reality that never changes. surly all of us here in this world will go through hard things. it is kind of crazy that we would agree to come here, certainly the flesh part of me ( that thinks he is in control and thinks he gets to reject the choice I already made ) does not agree to exist at all in a place such as this but the deepest part of me (when he is not focusing on the evils that are warring against him) is in paradise when he realized that God is love and that heaven and hades are what we can select in the here and now. the struggles we go through are very real but I really get tired of agreeing with the various demon mindsets and would like to more often choose to believe that everything we go through is ordered by God for our good. I know how hard it is to accept that God never changes and is love itself when we are in a season of struggling though. when God takes away that wonderful protection that he gives to us sometimes it really seems like God has abandoned us but those chances that God gives us are for us to respond to God in love and faith and it is truly pleasing to God when we cling to him even when it seems like we are in darkness ( though it is quite difficult to be perfect ).