Im at the end of my rope.....[moved from Christian Apologetics]

[Dirtydeak]

Dear brothers and siters in Christ, I am dying inside...... I can hardley see the key board as my eyes fill with tears. I am so tired, so mad....... I am a conicted sex offender in Florida. No one cares about my two daughters, or my mom. No one sees all the <edit> I go thro. No one cares..... I have just been thro my 4th home invasion.... they beat the <edit> out of me again, and I cant even call the cops, they will beat me too. Im sorry for the things I have done but no one cares. What do I have to do inorder to join a church, or get forgivness? How long must I be beat, stabbed and tourtured befor God heals me? All I know is pain, and lonlieness. I am an outcast looking for hope, finding only hatred..... All I feal anymore is wrath, thinking only about revenge, I fear I am ready to kill. All I want to do is get even, and yet, I know Christ. So were are you God my savior? When will you make trhis stop? Oh my God........ Please forgive me for your son, our saviors sake Jesus christ! Please renber me in the lambs book of life! Im sorry.... Pleas stop hurting me..... please stop. what do i have to do? Please........ Please........ Oh my God please, stop beating me! Please1 Im sorry, please, please

 

[BL2KTN]

I think you need to go to a GOOD church tomorrow, meet with a GOOD pastor, and ask him to please counsel you in this situation. I also think you need to reach out to anybody you can find, who has their life together, that will befriend you and help out. Don't strangle them with your needs, but let them help you.

I truly hope your situation improves soon. Remember the chance for better days is real.

BL

 

[Dirtydeak]

Ok, thats what Ill do. That will help!

 

[Dirtydeak]

How many churches do you think kicked me out the door? Im kinda like a homo in the churches eyes.

 

[BL2KTN]

Also, another thing to remember is that you're the only one still beating yourself up over sins of the past. God does not do that. Forgiveness is eternal - and you need to do that for yourself. Once you and God have done that, other people are in the wrong if they hold it over a person trying to live for good.

BL

 

[BL2KTN]

I don't care how many churches kick you out. You find a GOOD one.

 

[Dirtydeak]

Also, another thing to remember is that you're the only one still beating yourself up over sins of the past. God does not do that. Forgiveness is eternal - and you need to do that for yourself. Once you and God have done that, other people are in the wrong if they hold it over a person trying to live for good.

BL

Do you need pictures on whos beating me up? I have a towel raped around my head and im still dripping blood...... I have two daughters

 

[Dirtydeak]

Seriously now someone talk to me.... I need some help

 

[Dirtydeak]

If anyone is listening, Im am a convicted sex offender in Fl. What must I do to get forgivness? Ive been out of prision for 11 yrs now. I have two daughters that just saw their Dad beaten by 6 people in their own home.

 

[Dirtydeak]

Now what? who is going to protect them from these monsters?

 

[laconicstudent]

Now what? who is going to protect them from these monsters?

The police.

 

[Dirtydeak]

Honestly..... You think the cops care about me? If they were to come here right now and blow my brains out, do you think there would be a public outcry? " Tonight, urgent news out of Orlando.......... where a convicted sex offender tried to resist arrest and was shot by an Orange county police officer, Police officer BLAHHH said: 'He tried to go for my gun and I had to defend myself ' In latter news, have you spaid your pet....." Thats exaclty how it would go. And NO one would care.

 

[Dirtydeak]

Im sorry if I put the truth in your face, But not even the christian community cares about me........ all I have is Christ himself. and Im alone and scared in this world.

 

[Dirtydeak]

TRy me......................

 

[Dirtydeak]

My girls live with my mom..... They were visiting

 

[Dirtydeak]

Its all good..... Dont take it to heart, Im used to this by now.

 

[Dirtydeak]

Nevermind.... Same as always, just let the post sink to the bottom.... Who cares, maybe we can argue about the ot again for the millionth time. Forget me........ Goodnight

 

[Catherineanne]

Surely there are some other Christians here who have something positive to say?

Did someone call?

 

[Catherineanne]

Dear brothers and siters in Christ, I am dying inside...... I can hardley see the key board as my eyes fill with tears. I am so tired, so mad....... I am a conicted sex offender in Florida. No one cares about my two daughters, or my mom.

Hiya, J. My name is Cathy, and I live in England.

I am really sorry you are having such a difficult time, to say the least. Clearly you must be trustworthy, because your mother lets your daughters visit you. I wouldn't do that unless I trusted someone, so she trusts you. That is good.

What is not good is that you think you are not under the protection of the law. I know you have done wrong in the past, but this does not make you a social outcast. This is a lie, that those who are attacking you want you to believe, so that they can keep on doing it. In this instance you are the innocent victim, and they are the evil ones. They are not entitled to attack you, because of what happened years ago, and for which you have already paid.

I know it is fashionable these days to regard sex offenders as somehow sub human but I don't buy into that. Today's sex offender is yesterday's victim; someone hurt you and you are paying the price for that. I understand. Society is rightly concerned to protect innocent children, but when those children grow up, and remain damaged, we then turn them into monsters. You are most certainly not a monster.

I don't want to overwhelm you with too much information. For now, know that you are loved, and that when you are attacked, Christ is attacked with you, and that he already knows what that feels like, because it happened to him before. He ended up paying with his life. With any luck, this time we will not get to that.

Just to let you know, I reported the post with your personal details in it. You may not be able to protect yourself, when you are not thinking straight, so I have asked for this post to be removed, to protect you. So don't get frightened or worried if it disappears.

God be with you, my brother. PM if you want.

 

[OzSpen]

Brother in Christ,

Dear brothers and siters in Christ, I am dying inside...... I can hardley see the key board as my eyes fill with tears. I am so tired, so mad....... I am a conicted sex offender in Florida. No one cares about my two daughters, or my mom. No one sees all the SHEAT I go thro. No one cares..... I have just been thro my 4th home invasion.... they beat the SHEAT out of me again, and I cant even call the cops, they will beat me too. Im sorry for the things I have done but no one cares. What do I have to do inorder to join a church, or get forgivness? How long must I be beat, stabbed and tourtured befor God heals me? All I know is pain, and lonlieness. I am an outcast looking for hope, finding only hatred..... All I feal anymore is wrath, thinking only about revenge, I fear I am ready to kill. All I want to do is get even, and yet, I know Christ. So were are you God my savior? When will you make trhis stop? Oh my God........ Please forgive me for your son, our saviors sake Jesus christ! Please renber me in the lambs book of life! Im sorry.... Pleas stop hurting me..... please stop. what do i have to do? Please........ Please........ Oh my God please, stop beating me! Please1 Im sorry, please, please

Thank you for being so transparent about your situation. It must hurt deep down to have to share such rejection by Christians and others.

Please remember that if you truly repent from the heart, Jesus cleanses ALL sin, including the sin(s) of a sex offender.

I am a long-term family therapist and I'd like to share some practical considerations with you.

1. Have you been healed of your sexual sins to the point where you are no longer committing those sins? How long is it since you committed the sexual acts that put you in prison? Were you convicted of sexual offenses committed on your children?

2. I have found that many in the Christian church find it impossible to keep confidences. Therefore, if you go to a new church, please do not share your past with anyone.

3. I suggest that you seriously think of moving to another city and/or state and change your name (Is there any law in the USA that prevents a sex offender from changing his/her name?). This will mean cutting yourself off from those who are abusing you. Then join a Christ-loving, people-loving church that will disciple and teach you foundational principles of the Christian faith to help you grow in your faith.

4. There is a fundamental issue that Christians need to face with those who have committed sins such as yours. I'm thinking of what Jesus said in Matt. 6:14-15 (TNIV):

If you forgive others when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you. But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.

Christians who will not forgive you for your serious sins, have a massive spiritual problem. Their heavenly Father will not forgive them.

If you'd like to talk further on a confidential basis, please feel free to converse with me in private messages.

Your brother in Christ,
Spencer