I'm at loss...

[samanjm]

I hope this is the right category to post this. If not, somebody please point me to the right direction. Thank you

You, see, sometimes I feel like doing something creative or helpful. But the moment I actually try to sit down and do it, I go like...but who cares? Why should anyone care about anything I say or do, particularly?

The problem is...I do feel like whatever I do, if it doesn't help anyone, it doesn't really matter. And yet, I'm so afraid of being refused..I guess...or mocked, even, just the thought of it makes me feel so anxious that I just withdraw myself from everything.

...actually, I don't know what else to say. I do respond well to philosophical arguments, you could say this has now become an existential issue for me...that is why it's really hard to say anything more without making it sound trivial or whiny.

I guess I'm trying to figure out how to turn this feeling of being irrelevant into something constructive. I should add, before you say anything, that I do have hobbies and interests, but.......it's just that.....I don't feel compelled to do anything, it's just this all-consuming, vexing feeling of darkness and despair that is threatening to swallow me. Completely, head to toe, body and soul. And I can't for the love of god find a way to connect to...anyone...in a way that would be...that would feel real enough, if that makes any sense to you. For some reason, this last bit almost makes me burst into tears. I do get why people...feel the way they feel, I can even sympathise with them up to a point, but it's really difficult to get my own feelings across.

I know I'm being terribly abstract now, but I feel so dissociated...yes, that might be the right word....that it feels really pointless to talk about myself. As I have said before, why would anyone.....even this post is...more because I just had to try to...at least try to talk to someone about this. And the tears again....but I do feel some relief now.

Thank you for letting me do that. That's gotta do for now.....need to go to bed.

 

[Basil the Great]

It sounds like you suffer from depression and this is a very common ailment. There are many different ways to approach the problem. However what works for one person may not work for another. I fought situational depression, off and on, for many years, but have been free of it now for about 25 years. I recommend that you consider talking to a professional that is trained in counseling, be he/she a member of the clergy or otherwise. If this is not possible, do you have a close friend or relative that could assist you? If still no luck, there are staff here that might be able to assist you. My favorite solution to fight depression of the long list of different options, is to find some ways to help others in need. However, there are many other good approaches. The key is to realize that you do not like your current situation and that you want to change it for the better. Every time that I became consumed by depression, I usually turned to the classic book by the late Dale Carnegie, "How to Stop Worrying and Start Living". It is loaded with many good ideas.

May God bless you and remember that no matter what, even if you have trouble connecting with others, God does love you and we have the hope of living in Heaven with Him someday. Peace be with you.

 

[joshua 1 9]

the thought of it makes me feel so anxious that I just withdraw myself from everything.

God does not give us the spirit of fear but of power, love and a sound mind. You need to reject what the enemy is trying to give you so you can receive what God wants and plans for your life. We need Divine Love, Divine Faith, Grace and the Promises of God. This is what we need to get through the storms of life.

 

[Drifter Kybe Scythe Kane]

I hope this is the right category to post this. If not, somebody please point me to the right direction. Thank you

You, see, sometimes I feel like doing something creative or helpful. But the moment I actually try to sit down and do it, I go like...but who cares? Why should anyone care about anything I say or do, particularly?

The problem is...I do feel like whatever I do, if it doesn't help anyone, it doesn't really matter. And yet, I'm so afraid of being refused..I guess...or mocked, even, just the thought of it makes me feel so anxious that I just withdraw myself from everything.

...actually, I don't know what else to say. I do respond well to philosophical arguments, you could say this has now become an existential issue for me...that is why it's really hard to say anything more without making it sound trivial or whiny.

I guess I'm trying to figure out how to turn this feeling of being irrelevant into something constructive. I should add, before you say anything, that I do have hobbies and interests, but.......it's just that.....I don't feel compelled to do anything, it's just this all-consuming, vexing feeling of darkness and despair that is threatening to swallow me. Completely, head to toe, body and soul. And I can't for the love of god find a way to connect to...anyone...in a way that would be...that would feel real enough, if that makes any sense to you. For some reason, this last bit almost makes me burst into tears. I do get why people...feel the way they feel, I can even sympathise with them up to a point, but it's really difficult to get my own feelings across.

I know I'm being terribly abstract now, but I feel so dissociated...yes, that might be the right word....that it feels really pointless to talk about myself. As I have said before, why would anyone.....even this post is...more because I just had to try to...at least try to talk to someone about this. And the tears again....but I do feel some relief now.

Thank you for letting me do that. That's gotta do for now.....need to go to bed.

First of all, there really is no such thing as a loser if that's what is troubling you, it's a made up thing. As I always say, everyone is unique because everyone has their own unique galaxy in them that make them them. There is such a thing as taking a break from competition in life too if that is also what's troubling you that you feel the need to compete well but feel you are coming up short. I'd also say since you are Christian, follow Jesus's teachings. His ways are something I agree with when I was once Christian. Remember the people who are pressured with many troubles are like diamonds in a sense for diamonds and precious beautiful rocks are made of pressure of dirt weight pressuring around that beautiful rock all around them so in a sense it's not so bad having struggles. You also hit another point in that life really is all about struggle no matter how impossible that struggle seems to make your life seem giving you a noble thing life to reach a noble and humble standard in life when you look it in that way. Like I always, keep positive and keep your head up...or in your ways since you are Christian like I once was-pray..

 

[Chinchilla]

The problem is...I do feel like whatever I do, if it doesn't help anyone, it doesn't really matter. And yet, I'm so afraid of being refused..I guess...or mocked, even, just the thought of it makes me feel so anxious that I just withdraw myself from everything.

...actually, I don't know what else to say. I do respond well to philosophical arguments, you could say this has now become an existential issue for me...that is why it's really hard to say anything more without making it sound trivial or whiny.

Because if you preach the gospel people reject the topic of the gospel not you really . You don't need to have philosophical arguments you preach free gift of salvation made by Christ who was sacrificed for our sins on cross and rose from the dead .

1 Corinthians 2:4-6 King James Version (KJV)
4 And my speech and my preaching was not with enticing words of man's wisdom, but in demonstration of the Spirit and of power:

5 That your faith should not stand in the wisdom of men, but in the power of God.

6 Howbeit we speak wisdom among them that are perfect: yet not the wisdom of this world, nor of the princes of this world, that come to nought:


1 Corinthians 1:22-30 King James Version (KJV)
22 For the Jews require a sign, and the Greeks seek after wisdom:

23 But we preach Christ crucified, unto the Jews a stumblingblock, and unto the Greeks foolishness;

24 But unto them which are called, both Jews and Greeks, Christ the power of God, and the wisdom of God.

25 Because the foolishness of God is wiser than men; and the weakness of God is stronger than men.

26 For ye see your calling, brethren, how that not many wise men after the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called:

27 But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;

 

[1watchman]

I hope this is the right category to post this. If not, somebody please point me to the right direction. Thank you

You, see, sometimes I feel like doing something creative or helpful. But the moment I actually try to sit down and do it, I go like...but who cares? Why should anyone care about anything I say or do, particularly?

The problem is...I do feel like whatever I do, if it doesn't help anyone, it doesn't really matter. And yet, I'm so afraid of being refused..I guess...or mocked, even, just the thought of it makes me feel so anxious that I just withdraw myself from everything.

...actually, I don't know what else to say. I do respond well to philosophical arguments, you could say this has now become an existential issue for me...that is why it's really hard to say anything more without making it sound trivial or whiny.

I guess I'm trying to figure out how to turn this feeling of being irrelevant into something constructive. I should add, before you say anything, that I do have hobbies and interests, but.......it's just that.....I don't feel compelled to do anything, it's just this all-consuming, vexing feeling of darkness and despair that is threatening to swallow me. Completely, head to toe, body and soul. And I can't for the love of god find a way to connect to...anyone...in a way that would be...that would feel real enough, if that makes any sense to you. For some reason, this last bit almost makes me burst into tears. I do get why people...feel the way they feel, I can even sympathise with them up to a point, but it's really difficult to get my own feelings across.

I know I'm being terribly abstract now, but I feel so dissociated...yes, that might be the right word....that it feels really pointless to talk about myself. As I have said before, why would anyone.....even this post is...more because I just had to try to...at least try to talk to someone about this. And the tears again....but I do feel some relief now.

Thank you for letting me do that. That's gotta do for now.....need to go to bed.

Hello Samanjm. Well, the remedy for all our troubles, concerns, fears, etc. are found in God's Word ---see John 1; John 3; John 14 for an overview. "Seek the Lord and He will be found" (note Deut. 4:29). Don't look for perfection in our flesh or the world's ways, but know that with earnest faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mankind will be pleased to bless ---now and forever.

 

[1watchman]

Hello Samanjm. Well, the remedy for all our troubles, concerns, fears, etc. are found in God's Word ---see John 1; John 3; John 14 for an overview. "Seek the Lord and He will be found" (note Deut. 4:29). Don't look for perfection in our flesh or the world's ways, but know that with earnest faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mankind will be pleased to bless ---now and forever.

Added thought: You might find it helpful if you think this depression is more than just personal feelings of inadequacy (which we all have at times), to see a physician. I recommend an Internal Medicine Specialist, who are quite good at diagnosis. Physiological conditions can cause depression. Let me urge you to stay in communion with the Lord Jesus daily, who can lift you up spiritually and heal. It pleases the Father when we regard His "...beloved Son" who loves us; and we can thus find peace. I will pray for you.