I'm at it agian !

[Leta]

Hello all!
I haven't SI in a long time and now i'm doing it everyday! I'm recently divorced after 10 years and 4 children! My ex says he just doesn't love me anymore and he never will agian! It was just that easy for him. Not only am I SIing but it has awakend my bulimia, i'm a mess! I pretend so well, people think I am this strong tower, someone who "has it all together". I lied at church today when people asked what the scratches were on my arm (the bad ones have a band aids on) and I told them it was my cat. I lied at church on EASTER! I feel like the biggest loser jerk on the planet! I am at the point now where I feel hopefully I'll cut too deep one time and just bleed out. I'm sorry I just need to vent ! Thank you for listening.
Saleta

 

[goldenviolet]

oh honey ... reach out at church with some of your needs. support for your marriage dissapointments and hurt and anger. ask the church to be the hands and feet of Jesus. you need and deserve to be apart of your family ... your heart ache is now ours too. i know there is alot of love here... so i don't just speak for me. ... i'm so happy you have come to CF !! i commit toi praying for you everyday. love and blessings! dee

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[Bevlina]

Hello all!
I haven't SI in a long time and now i'm doing it everyday! I'm recently divorced after 10 years and 4 children! My ex says he just doesn't love me anymore and he never will agian! It was just that easy for him. Not only am I SIing but it has awakend my bulimia, i'm a mess! I pretend so well, people think I am this strong tower, someone who "has it all together". I lied at church today when people asked what the scratches were on my arm (the bad ones have a band aids on) and I told them it was my cat. I lied at church on EASTER! I feel like the biggest loser jerk on the planet! I am at the point now where I feel hopefully I'll cut too deep one time and just bleed out. I'm sorry I just need to vent ! Thank you for listening.
Saleta

Leta, never thank us for listening. I am so sorry this has happened to you, but your mind must be in torment. Divorce is never pretty.
No, you didn't lie at church really, you defended yourself. It's your business and you just didn't want folk to know what had happened in case of talk.
The shock of things can be overpowering and lkead to a confused state of mind.
I believe the human brain can only take so much stress before it starts to react and sadly enough, most of this reaction can lead to SI.
I believe you need a good rest more than anything else.

 

[Cat59]

for you Saleta, and prayers too! It sounds as though you're going through a lot at the moment..

for you!

 

[Leta]

Thank you all!
Man what a breath of fresh air to be able to actually say what you are feeling and not be faced with rejection because ppl think you're crazy! Thnak you all agian!
God Bless,
Saleta