something happened at church friday that has left me feeling really odd and kinda upset. we were praying for the baptism of the Holy Ghost for those who needed to be filled or re-filled. my pastor prayed that i would be filled, and then she sent one of the ladies to pray over me and another one to pray over my mom. my mom doesn't speak in tongues. i've been speaking in tongues since i was 16 (so i thought it was odd they would pray such a prayer over me). when they approached us, the first thing they did was ask us do we want to be filled with the Holy Spirit. but why would they make the assumption that we're not filled already? i think i would've appreciated it if they would've asked us ARE we filled with the Holy Spirit instead of assuming that we weren't. we've been going to this church for almost 2 years now. do they honestly think that we haven't received the Holy Spirit after all this time if not before we came there? this has been nagging me. i told the lady that i pray in the Spirit, and she said 'well say something in tongues then'...... i felt like i had to go through some screening or something to prove i was filled by the Holy Spirit. this left me feeling really bad afterwards. i could tell my mom was really hurt by this. she's never spoken in tongues, and i dont think she has a very good understanding of what it means to be filled with the Spirit and the spiritual gifts that come afterwards. she spent a lot of years in the Baptist church where they taught that the gifts had ceased, and for her to have an experience like this would only make her more resistant to it. now i dont know how to explain this to my mom. i'm having trouble understanding why it happened myself.... i thought the LORD knew those that were His? why would they have to screen us to see if we're filled with the Holy Ghost or not? and since when are they the ones that determine such a thing? the lady wouldn't go away until i started praying in tongues...... i guess afterwards she felt like she had some power and it made her feel good that i was now 'filled with the Spirit' as a result of her praying for me. but i've been praying this way since i was 16. i felt hurt that they would do this without at least asking us if we were already filled... personally, i dont believe that speaking in tongues proves who's filled and who's not filled. i believe it's a result of being filled, but it doesn't prove that you're filled..... experiences like this is what causes a lot of people to reject the baptism of the Holy Ghost. this has made me question a lot of things about my church, and i dont like it that my mom is hurt over all this and i dont know how to explain it to her... i really feel like they should be the ones to explain