it all started when i moved to a different city even though i felt like god was leading me to stay where we were. i betrayed him by ignoring his will for my family. dealing with this guilt lead me to not going to church, drinking, smoking, cussing, and sexual sin. my marriage, thankfully, is strong. during this past year, i have felt empty and lost and want soooo much to be back in his arms. the problem??? i have asked for forgiveness but dont "feel" like i am back. when i go to church, i feel somewhat of an outsider ....as if i dont know what they are talking about. my brother-in-law says i did not mean it when i asked for forgiveness. i am not sure...it seemed like i did.
while visiting a church, the pastor pointed out hebrews 6:2 that states in the new living translation.... for it is impossible to restore to repentance those who were once enlightened-those who have experienced the good things of heaven and shared in the holy spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of god and the power of the age to come-and who then turn away from god. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to bring such people to repentance again........
what does this mean for me??? i am so broken hearted over what i have done....mainly the fact that i completely ignored him every time he told me to stop! i miss him so much...but i cant seem to change. i am not drinking, smoke occasionally...and the sexual sin has been almost a year ago. but....it hasnt changed my lonliness or longing to be back.
any advice...or words of wisdom would be helpful!! enlighten me please!! thank you in advance! KC
while visiting a church, the pastor pointed out hebrews 6:2 that states in the new living translation.... for it is impossible to restore to repentance those who were once enlightened-those who have experienced the good things of heaven and shared in the holy spirit, who have tasted the goodness of the word of god and the power of the age to come-and who then turn away from god. IT IS IMPOSSIBLE to bring such people to repentance again........
what does this mean for me??? i am so broken hearted over what i have done....mainly the fact that i completely ignored him every time he told me to stop! i miss him so much...but i cant seem to change. i am not drinking, smoke occasionally...and the sexual sin has been almost a year ago. but....it hasnt changed my lonliness or longing to be back.
any advice...or words of wisdom would be helpful!! enlighten me please!! thank you in advance! KC
