------> If you care.

[appointed]

-I just got out of highschool, but I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life.
-I can't control my anger.
-I swear about absolutely nothing, over the slightest upset.
-I struggle with porn when I am sad or frustrated.
-My girlfriend doesn't like me, she never wants to see me or be close. She's going to breakup with me.
-My parents and family hate me, because I can't stand them.
-Even my closest friends are ignoring me.
-This has been the loneliest summer of my entire life.
-I am on sleeping medication, I never sleep well.
-I am at a dead end, meaningless job.
The future seems dark and hopeless, I really don't wish to be here any more. I have been deeply depressed for many years. But, everyone ignores my desire for help.

No, I'm not addicted to drugs.
No, I'm not a felon.
No, I haven't had my parents abandon me.

But, is that not worth a help? I have been to a doctor to talk, maybe twice, and then everything is fixed? No, just as I suspected. I'm totally and utterly worthless.

 

[tapero]

Dear Appointed,

Hi. I care. Sounds like you are really going through a rough time. Sometimes I feel like you do, but we always have that hope, that trust in Christ, that we are here but a short time, even though it seems so long, and then we will be with God forever. With Him in us now, we can have a hope, a glimmer when down, that he will never leave us. He loves you. You said that no one takes you seriously about your depression. I have that same problem, because I don't know why. I think because I show such a good face on the outside and I don't show my feelings. It took me a year to get on anti-depressants because my doctor didn't see me as depressed.

I was thinking if somehow you could learn a trade.

I had no computer experience and God gave me a job operating a mainframe computer. It was a great job. Now those computers are outdated mainly but it showed me that God can do anything. I feel your sadness and it makes me sad. I want to help you carry the burden. That's why I feel sad.

You are not worthless. You are a child of the King! I pray you get medical care where they really hear what you have to say and what you are dealing with.

There is hope, there is Light. One step at a time.

God bless you dear one, Love, Tapero

 

[Ruth~]

Dear Appointed,
I see you are really going through a lot. It can be overwhelming, I know. If you take one issue at a time and work on it things will get better slowly but surely. Try and keep an open mind and have willingness to make changes in your life. It can make all the difference. You already know everything that is going wrong and I'm sure you can find ways to deal with each thing. Maybe make a list and then do some brainstorming on what you can or cannot do about each problem. The answers are within you. I can tell you are smart and know that. There are those who don't even know what their problems are but you already know so you have a head start on making progress for yourself. I think it would be a good idea to see a counselor for help and also a doctor for an evaluation, too. Best wishes to you. Hope you keep on talking about things and ideas for change, too.

 

[Mrs. Luther073082]

Try listing some good things about yourself or your life. Or, think of your life from the perspective of someone less fortunate than you. For example, at least you have: an education, a girlfriend, a job, a family, a home, and a doctor. Maybe you do not currently feel that those things are doing you any good, but keep in mind that some people do not even have an education, have never been in a relationship, want a job and can't seem to get one, have lost their family, have no friends, or can't afford to get to a doctor.

You are at the beginning of your life, not the end. There is plenty of time and opportunity to make things better.

If your doctor isn't helping you then find a different one. Some doctors, in fact, probably a lot of them, suck. Don't waste anymore time with someone who isn't giving you what you need. There are doctors out there who will be willing to help. The first thing that they need to help you with is your perspective. If you start looking at things differently and try to be more positive instead of punishing yourself and making everything harder than it has to be, then you will start to feel better. And maybe if you start to feel better, other things in your life (relationships, mainly) will start to get better, too.

I hope that I do not sound judgemental or condescending in the things that I said. If I do, I don't mean to be. I have been through how you currently feel before and I used to punish myself by thinking up reasons to loath myself. I went to doctors that weren't any good, too. What I can tell you is that if you change the way you think, you might very well be able to change the way you feel. A good, caring doctor, will be able to guide you into doing just that.

 

[PrairieGurl]

I CARE APPOINTED, ,

My heart aches for you. My son is also 18 and does not know what he is going to do with his life. I think this is normal for young men and women.

YOU ARE NOT totally and utterly worthless !!! You are loved by the One who made you, worth more than you'll ever know to Him ! Sometimes when we are so down on ourselves we feel that no one likes us (this does NOT make it true) My other son (who is 17) battles with depression. He often feels as you do, even though his father and I love him SO much. Why can't you stand your parents?

Your "dead end job, meaningless job is not your career...it is just tempory till you find your "nitch" in life.

I agree with others that you search till you find a doc who sees your depression. Even if you find a doc who "knows where you are at", 20 talks with him will NOT fix everything. Overcoming depression takes time. Alot of things are mixed in the "pot" to deal and live, with depression.

Please, dear Appointed, think ever so deep about not wanting to "be here anymore". THERE IS HOPE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (even if you can't see it right now)

With s & s

 

[UnitynLove]

-I just got out of highschool, but I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life.
-I can't control my anger.
-I swear about absolutely nothing, over the slightest upset.
-I struggle with porn when I am sad or frustrated.
-My girlfriend doesn't like me, she never wants to see me or be close. She's going to breakup with me.
-My parents and family hate me, because I can't stand them.
-Even my closest friends are ignoring me.
-This has been the loneliest summer of my entire life.
-I am on sleeping medication, I never sleep well.
-I am at a dead end, meaningless job.
The future seems dark and hopeless, I really don't wish to be here any more. I have been deeply depressed for many years. But, everyone ignores my desire for help.

No, I'm not addicted to drugs.
No, I'm not a felon.
No, I haven't had my parents abandon me.

But, is that not worth a help? I have been to a doctor to talk, maybe twice, and then everything is fixed? No, just as I suspected. I'm totally and utterly worthless.

-I just got out of highschool, but I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. (Thats Ok, I didn't either. A LARGE majority of people don't know what they wantt to do when they leave highschool. You still have time to think. In the mean time go over your likes and dislikes and take remdial classes)
-I can't control my anger. (Yes you can, You can do all things through Christ Jesus Who strengthens you!)
-I swear about absolutely nothing, over the slightest upset. (It can be controlled with the help of Jesus)
-I struggle with porn when I am sad or frustrated. (It ok, we all have our struggles but if we lean on the lords strength we can overcome any obsticle).
-My girlfriend doesn't like me, she never wants to see me or be close. She's going to breakup with me. (When one door closes another one open. Remember God will do exceedingly abundantly more than you can even ask or think of)
-My parents and family hate me, because I can't stand them. (Forgivness if the Key)
-Even my closest friends are ignoring me. (God will never forsake you. If they left you they were not real to begin with. Lean on the lord in these times)
-This has been the loneliest summer of my entire life. (I reckon that the sufferings of this present time is not worthy to be compared with the Glory that shall be revealed in us. God has something better for you in the furture!)
-I am on sleeping medication, I never sleep well. (Cast all your cares on him and he shall give you rest for your soul)
-I am at a dead end, meaningless job. (Try finding a new one, God will help you. Maybe your meant to be there to help someone out)
The future seems dark and hopeless, I really don't wish to be here any more. I have been deeply depressed for many years. But, everyone ignores my desire for help. (God has never left you he is always there for you and will help you through all that you go through!).

 

[HolyOne87]

-I just got out of highschool, but I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life.
-I can't control my anger.
-I swear about absolutely nothing, over the slightest upset.
-I struggle with porn when I am sad or frustrated.
-My girlfriend doesn't like me, she never wants to see me or be close. She's going to breakup with me.
-My parents and family hate me, because I can't stand them.
-Even my closest friends are ignoring me.
-This has been the loneliest summer of my entire life.
-I am on sleeping medication, I never sleep well.
-I am at a dead end, meaningless job.
The future seems dark and hopeless, I really don't wish to be here any more. I have been deeply depressed for many years. But, everyone ignores my desire for help.

No, I'm not addicted to drugs.
No, I'm not a felon.
No, I haven't had my parents abandon me.

But, is that not worth a help? I have been to a doctor to talk, maybe twice, and then everything is fixed? No, just as I suspected. I'm totally and utterly worthless.

I am sorry to hear that you are struggling. I am sorry that people ignore your desire for help. I know how that is sometimes. I get into moods a lot and people seem not to care.

Maybe its time to make some changes..Even if you have to do it on your own. Try and better yourself, first off..You can try finding a better doctor(one that isnt so careless as the ones you seemed to have seen already). You probably have to do some heavy research, but I am sure there is one or two around your area who will be able to help you. You can always ask around your parish, see if there is anyone that is really good and that will actually care what you have to say..Or maybe try one of those teen hotlines..and talk to people your age who have struggled with the some of the same things you struggled with. Or maybe even join a group and meet people who might be struggling with some of the same things.

To me, your probably a really awesome guy.You have a lot going for you(as some said your education and stuff). Although your friends seemed to have abandoned you, its never to late to meet new ones who will be there to comfort you and listen to you whenever you need them. I lost contact with mostly everyone in my graduating class..with exception to one..but in return I have made so many loyal friends in college.

As far as your anger problem, maybe try and find ways to cope with your anger..I know some ways I cope with mine is by listening to music or writing down my feelings.

As far as the parents/family situation, i do not know the reasons why you cant stand them, but keep in mind, they are your family and i know deep down they love and care for you. I mean, sometimes I cant stand mine, but I can cope with it and I am pretty sure through hard work, you can too.

I really hope things get better for you!

+God Bless+