IDK how I got these chains!

[Sonicwhite]

I was doing just fine and dandy up until my OCD hit. Pretty much a train wreck to me. Ya I started smoking cigs but I was still on fire for God. I think what happened was I was so eager to please God that the stress was to much. Elevated anxiety due to the fact I was smoking and it just went out of control after that. I ever since then have struggled with temptations and attacks from the enemy. IDK how I got these chains that bind me. The only thing that holds me together, is the scripture God gave me in a dream. Rev ch 3 v 7. There are three key points out of that He has givin me. 1: You have endure patiently. 2: You have did what I commanded and have not denied My Name. 3: I will make those who call themselves jews but are not, but are liars say to you that I have loved you. These things God has givin to me. I'm sure God wants me to seek the Kingdom and all it's Rightousness and all my pure desires will be added unto me.

 

[HopingForJesus]

I wish I was in more of a better mental state this morning to comprehend much. I am overly stressed out from my OCD too. But, keep hanging onto GOD. That is a very interesting revelation in a dream for sure. Keep seeking out his kingdom. Don't ever give up. Remember he loves and cherishes you.

 

[dabro]

Reassurence that I desired that I'm going to the kingdom.<---third point. Second: I have not sought out sex or nor ever walk in that way but kept myself pure. first: I have done this for 5 yr's. I hope that cleared the air for everyone. That you guys are fine and are not the Jews He was referring to.

 

[shelovesChrist]

I'm sure God wants me to seek the Kingdom and all it's Rightousness and all my pure desires will be added unto me.

amen. hold onto the word that He has for you. that's Him speaking to you .

 

[Sonicwhite]

I'm just being honest because It seems to relieve the mania and massive guilt I feel everyday. Like I shouldn't be to patient and allow who ever comes into my life, to let them in. So IDK what to do? I'm not dealing with OCD but just guilt all the time.

 

[shelovesChrist]

I'm just being honest because It seems to relieve the mania and massive guilt I feel everyday.

amen . I love when the Lord speaks to you and gives you something for you. The other night I had a dream and I was in fear and holding the Bible (there's more to it) but just summing it all up and I was turning the pages in seach or something and it stopped at I saw satan falling and some other stuff. It was wierd but when I woke up I was afraid but I remember reading that somewhere like that being in the Bible and at first I though it was in Isaiah or Revelation but I found it in Luke 10:18 18He replied, "I saw Satan fall like lightning from heaven. 19I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. 20However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in heaven And I was confused at first and then happy then my mind tried to be doubtful at what He gave me but that's His word for me. And I was scared that night because I had a nightmare and when I woke up and read that I was calm and able to go back to sleep after an hour or so. But sometimes or presents pains and stuff distract us from what He said to us. We need to take hold. I was so happy when He gave you that scripture in Revelation. It was so beautiful. And dont be down on yourself because we slip and fall, your soul in anchored in the Lord, boat might rock, storms might come, but we are not going anywhere . Praying for you always.

Oh and I didnt get the last part of what you were trying to say. I was confused. Like I shouldn't be to patient and allow who ever comes into my life, to let them in. So IDK what to do? I'm not dealing with OCD but just guilt all the time. Like what did you mean.

 

[Sonicwhite]

Like what I was saying is someone will come into my life, and this is a biggie I deal with. there not up to my High standards. And that is why I feel massive guilt. Also I have had ppl call me creep cos I'm not up to the standards and they lead me on or I just keep pushing and that hurts. I'm positive I'm either bipolar or schizoeffective. But I'm one of them but I've with the Lords help have conquered that. I'm not spiking right now either. I'm just dealing with some insecurities in my life and the struggles with temptation.

 

[shelovesChrist]

we will never find anyone perfect and someone who meets our standards 100% on the dot. but today at Bible study a question was asked like how do you know you've found the right mate, the one to marry. and Bishop was saying how we should pray on it, observe, and be patient. im not an expert but i know when i feel someone draw away from me, my first intention is to draw toward them and try my best to show them i love them. but we can't make anybody do what they dont want to do. dont worry about the people who misunderstood you. God gives us the desires of our hearts and He has someone for you that will desire to be with you and you have to pray to Him and ask Him to send you that person and until He does we wait. the waiting part is the part that's hard for me because i really really want someone by my side but if i have to wait to get the right one, then it's going to be worth it. I'm glad the Lord is working with you. Don't worry, sometimes we set unrealistic goals for ourselves and then when we can't meet them we feel very low but the Lord will work on you and when He's through, it's going to be alright. I get you on the insecurities and temptation part. I really feel like I'm all over the place as far as what I want to do with my life and it's so frustrating. Like I ask questions what is my purpose, what am I suppose to be, what job, what field, it just gets me to the point where I just want to curl up and cry to Him all night. I don't know if I'm where I'm supposed to or what in the natural, but I feel really good in the spiritual. IDK. But I'm praying for you as always and I hope you get a good night's rest =]