i am done the christian in me has exspired.......good luck to those who find comfort in religion
Ok, I know that life is hard believe me! I have so many examples of it, some i'm ashamed to even mentioned that's going on with me, but because I have Jesus in my heart (not religion), I am able to still wake up every morning.
Now here's a few examples:
I'm 26 and still not married
I'm painfully shy, and I have hardly to no friends
My parents never married, which makes me a child out of wedlock (and they haven't spoken to each other since I was 3)
I live in a different state then them (my own doing) and many of my other siblings and for 3 years at least, I have not been able to go and visit them.
I now live in a house (my own doing again) where I am not appreciated, a house of many people and at the moment I am the only one with a job, so you can guess where a large part of each paycheck (of which I don't get much of) goes every two weeks.
I am still an outcast, and have been one since school.
I have terrible Anxiety disorder, one so bad that I question my physical as well as mental health at least everyday, sometimes multiple times a day.
Let me tell you something. Satan wants you to give up. This is your choice as the Lord has given you free will to chose either him or another way (which there is only one, because Jesus says" either you are for me or against me). The bible also mentions "perseverance" And I realized this honestly just recently after all the suffering and feeling sorry for myself that this is why God says to persevere. He loves you and will never leave you!!! even when you feel like he's not there. It's not a "christian life" without the holy spirit living in you and from then we live on blind faith. All you have to do is know without a shadow of a doubt that REGARDLESS of how you feel (cause the bible states that our feelings can actually trick us) that Jesus Christ is by your side. I am remembering that day to day. Some days it's harder yes. But I know that if not anything better is to come to my life, that I will not leave it without being able to be in Jesus' arms which in the first place, is waaaay better than this life anyways. I will be praying for you, and I want you to remember, Jesus Truly Loves you!!!