I was doing so well :(

[beetlequeendiva]

I hadn't thrown up or taken laxitives in over a week and then today I ate so much and weighed myself and I'm so fat - so I took some laxitives. I'm so fat .........

 

[beetlequeendiva]

I've also got lots of sweets hidden in the house - like actually in a place where no-one will look...... it's disgusting I feel so fat but I can't stop eating junk and then throwing up or taking laxitives..... it's so depressing

 

[Cerulean_Butterfly]

I love ya, hun. You can do this... hang in there.

-Jo.

 

[WhereareyouGod?]

You can do this hunni! I know it, everyone messes up on their road to recovery! You are not fat you are not ugly.

You are an awesome brilliant beautiful peron who has always been there for me.

Love you!

Lizzie

 

[PromiseSeeker]

I remember when I came across something that said "feeling" fat wasn't real. That you can't "feel" fat..... only full.

I don't like to get overly full..... I think that's where those feelings come from. Try to eat whatever you want and try to stop just short of full. Then, those horrible feelings won't bombard you.

Oh and the lax's......... ugh, I've been there........ They are only a temporary fix to a problem that needs dealt with. Again it come back to being overly full.

Try not to allow yourself to each too much and I promise those feelings of "being fat" and needing lax's won't arise so often. It's hard. I'm not saying at ALL that it's easy! But, with the help of all the ladies on here, lots of prayer and determination on your part it can be done! God bless.

 

[beetlequeendiva]

I remember when I came across something that said "feeling" fat wasn't real. That you can't "feel" fat..... only full.

I don't like to get overly full..... I think that's where those feelings come from. Try to eat whatever you want and try to stop just short of full. Then, those horrible feelings won't bombard you.

Oh and the lax's......... ugh, I've been there........ They are only a temporary fix to a problem that needs dealt with. Again it come back to being overly full.

Try not to allow yourself to each too much and I promise those feelings of "being fat" and needing lax's won't arise so often. It's hard. I'm not saying at ALL that it's easy! But, with the help of all the ladies on here, lots of prayer and determination on your part it can be done! God bless.

I understand what you are saying however sometimes the want to throw up or take laxitives comes even when I've hardly eaten so sometimes to stop wanting to throw up I don't eat!! It's a vicious circle however I actually talked to a person face to face about it today - actually 2 people - i admitted that i have a problem but can't quite admit that it's a disorder.... i'm not sure I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in a week so we'll see how that goes!!!

 

[Music4Hym777]

I understand what you are saying however sometimes the want to throw up or take laxitives comes even when I've hardly eaten so sometimes to stop wanting to throw up I don't eat!! It's a vicious circle however I actually talked to a person face to face about it today - actually 2 people - i admitted that i have a problem but can't quite admit that it's a disorder.... i'm not sure I have an appointment with my psychiatrist in a week so we'll see how that goes!!!

I'm proud of you for taking the first steps to recovery....I'm sure it was hard for you to tell someone(s). Good luck at the Psychiatrist!