Hi, I apologize if I'm posting in the wrong section but I really want help and advice. I'm 17 years old and I am a lesbian and athiest. I have always laughed at the thought of God and I didn't care about what anyone had to say about my sexuality. But lately I have been thinking a lot and talking to my Christian friends about recovery. I have been trying to talk to God. I feel as though I can't make a real connection to him because I have lived my life in so much sin and anger. I was wondering if anyone can give me tips on how to fight this battle and how to become closer to God because I now feel he is real I just want him to forgive me for my actions. I really want to live for him and make my family and friends proud. Thank you in advance for any advice.