I called a national prayer line before and told them that everytime I did anything good for God that I felt like I was under severe condemnation and punishment. Now days, it's both when I do anything good or do anything not so good that I feel under this curse of death and eternal death. It's this pain that shoots inside of me, with signs and wonders to give attestments to the very presence of condemnation. It seems that I can't get a moment's time in for a true peaceful experience. Regardless of what I do nowdays, it's always either, I'm doing something too right or doing something terribly evil. Then there are the days when I forget all my past pains and experiences as if they never even happened.
