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[ChristInAction]

want to cut around my butterfly. I draw one of those butterflys to keep from cutting but its just making me want to carve that into my arm. We go back to school on wednesday & school is hell for me, not in the sence of not having friends or school being bad, its just that I have the face the world day after day. Not helping anyone. Just being. Walking around somewhere where noone understand the hell I fact at home. My brothers been extra bad this week (his servely disabled) like his vilent & stuff. He throw the remote across the room today at me, i ducked & it hit the wall so hard the wall cracked. Then he through my new school books on the floor & sreamed at me & hit me.When mum came home & yelled for like a hour at him & got in a huge fight. You would never understand how scarey they are when they do that.Then mum yelled at me for not controlling him.So yeah. Thats my vent but I really wana cuuutttt!

 

[LazeyWinde]

*Hugs*
Maybe you can draw flowers or something all around the butterfly?

 

[HolyOne87]

want to cut around my butterfly. I draw one of those butterflys to keep from cutting but its just making me want to carve that into my arm. We go back to school on wednesday & school is hell for me, not in the sence of not having friends or school being bad, its just that I have the face the world day after day. Not helping anyone. Just being. Walking around somewhere where noone understand the hell I fact at home. My brothers been extra bad this week (his servely disabled) like his vilent & stuff. He throw the remote across the room today at me, i ducked & it hit the wall so hard the wall cracked. Then he through my new school books on the floor & sreamed at me & hit me.When mum came home & yelled for like a hour at him & got in a huge fight. You would never understand how scarey they are when they do that.Then mum yelled at me for not controlling him.So yeah. Thats my vent but I really wana cuuutttt!

i know how tempting it is to cut, especially after what you are going through.
Is there a place around you where you can go maybe to help out (maybe a soup kitchen or something)? Sometimes helping others can help relax..Plus, it will get you out of your house for a while as well, which, from what it seems, its something you need sometimes.
I hope you will be okay!

 

[kathleenmary]

want to cut around my butterfly. I draw one of those butterflys to keep from cutting but its just making me want to carve that into my arm. We go back to school on wednesday & school is hell for me, not in the sence of not having friends or school being bad, its just that I have the face the world day after day. Not helping anyone. Just being. Walking around somewhere where noone understand the hell I fact at home. My brothers been extra bad this week (his servely disabled) like his vilent & stuff. He throw the remote across the room today at me, i ducked & it hit the wall so hard the wall cracked. Then he through my new school books on the floor & sreamed at me & hit me.When mum came home & yelled for like a hour at him & got in a huge fight. You would never understand how scarey they are when they do that.Then mum yelled at me for not controlling him.So yeah. Thats my vent but I really wana cuuutttt!

hey sweetie,
i know how you feel when you say that you want to cut. its soo hard to stop, and fighting the urges are soo tough, i know. but youre so much stronger than this. someone recently just told me to try and make a collage up of how im feeling. you can also try writing a letter to the item that you use to cut, and tell it how bad it is for you. and, if you have a close friend or family member to call up, that may help too.
you can pm me anytime.
-Kath
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[oneandlonely]

want to cut around my butterfly. I draw one of those butterflys to keep from cutting but its just making me want to carve that into my arm. We go back to school on wednesday & school is hell for me, not in the sence of not having friends or school being bad, its just that I have the face the world day after day. Not helping anyone. Just being. Walking around somewhere where noone understand the hell I fact at home. My brothers been extra bad this week (his servely disabled) like his vilent & stuff. He throw the remote across the room today at me, i ducked & it hit the wall so hard the wall cracked. Then he through my new school books on the floor & sreamed at me & hit me.When mum came home & yelled for like a hour at him & got in a huge fight. You would never understand how scarey they are when they do that.Then mum yelled at me for not controlling him.So yeah. Thats my vent but I really wana cuuutttt!

Just hang in there hun. Draw some flowers or something around Hannah? or maybe draw some friend for her?

 

[kathleenmary]

Just hang in there hun. Draw some flowers or something around Hannah? or maybe draw some friend for her?

yeah,that also sounds like a good idea!

 

[ChristInAction]

I cut

 

[LazeyWinde]

I cut

*Hugs*
You tried not to.

 

[secretx]

sorry to hear that... i have 3 butterflies on my arm and one heart.
lately when i've wanted to cut, i go shopping instead. and i def. don't let myself use the store's washroom. after a few hours, i don't have the urge anymore.

 

[HolyOne87]

aw, its okay. *hugs*
I will pray that God grants you the strength to overcome future urges and that He will be there every step of the way with you.

*many more hugs*

 

[Finn88]

I cut

ok, so thats over now.
Today is a new day! make a fresh start
hunny, you are doing so well! your trying so hard well done!
Just give it back to God again!!! Pray that he'll give you strength for today!

love and prayers,
Finnxx

 

[katylees]

that's ok sis. Just take care of yourself yeah? Please? I know what its like.

 

[kathleenmary]

I cut

thats okay...just keep trying! youre doing great!

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[mahalia]

huni, it's okay that you slip up. if hannah stalled the next date by a few hours, it was worth it!!

keep praying, and i hope school was okay... as an SI'er, i can tell you that getting involved in school life helps so much. i myself am so extremely busy (but it verges on being bad for my health - don't go there). i do karate, running, debating, forum discussion, interact (which is a huge community service thing so it's awesome) and tonnes more. i promise you it helps. just try not get to the point where your busy-ness becomes a way of running away - bad idea!

and if you're not interested in clubs, at least do a sport. it's one thing that really helps.

cling to God, my angel.

keep praying
God bless
Love always

m

 

[Buttermilk]

I cut

C'mere