I think its time to go home

[Fred Stellabotte]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. <staff edit> I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

 

[brinny]

Hello Fred. Praying for your precious wife, and you too during this excruciating and disheartening time for both of you, to the One Who is a very PRESENT HELP in our times of trouble, pain, suffering, and profound discouragement. Praying that He intervenes and minister to your wife, and you too, and that HE is a Lifter of each of your dear heads. Father may it be so, in Jesus name, amen. Welcome to CF, Fred. (((hug)))

"God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble." ~Psalm 46:1

"But thou, O LORD, art a shield for me; my glory, and the lifter up of mine head." ~Psalm 3:3

 

[Hall]

I am very sorry to hear that. Is the constant pain from your neck what keeps you from focusing on praying with the Holy Spirit or is it the depression? Are you taking pain medications.

 

[Solomons Porch]

Prayers needed please

YOU GOT IT !!!!!!!

 

[Korean-American Christian]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. See my website www.stellabotte.org. I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

Fred, praying for you and your wife.

 

[mnorian]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. See my website www.stellabotte.org. I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

Hi Fred;
welcome to CF; May the Lord Jesus guide you here as well as in the world; and may you find friends and what ever you need from the Lord here. I do have a question for you; do you like music--Praise & Worship music? Well we have a new forum here at CF just for P&W music and at the top is a directory of other Christian music threads around CF; come and take a look!

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[CoolDude68]

You need to find another doctor perhaps. There is no reason anyone should have to suffer due to pain with the modern medicines of today.

If you're saying nothing on this planet helps with the pain that's a different story but still, you'd think something could be done about that.

As you know, God is the top doctor of all, so I pray that He gives you relief and heals your pain. In the meantime, it may not hurt to also get a 2nd, or 3rd opinion from an earthy medical professional. Yes, chronic pain is difficult to treat, but there are alternative methods available as well.

 

[Truthfrees]

MOD HAT

moving thread to advice forum for prayer/encouragement/advice

 

[Truthfrees]

praying for you and your wife in the mighty name of Jesus according to 1 Peter 2:24

praying that the cause of your pain be healed in Jesus name

praying for your wife's needs as well

sorry for the lack of support you have received

praying that God's Holy angels surround you and lift you up

and that the Holy Spirit come to comfort you and show you want steps to take

praying for a complete and miraculous healing for you so that you can live and not die and declare the works of the Lord - Psalms 118:17

 

[Truthfrees]

Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

contacting several prayer groups i am a part of to get them to pray also

 

[Kit Sigmon]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. <staff edit> I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

It sounds like you and your wife could use in-home help...
Elder Helpline Accesses a qualified Information and Referral specialist who can provide information about services available for elders and their caregivers within the local community. 888-242-4464 or 904-777-21

St. Johns County Council on Aging Community Care for the Elderly county lead agency. Provides case management and in-home services to qualified elders.
180 Marine St. St. Augustine, FL 32084 904-823-4810

I spent over 20 years providing care to others professionally and privately...retired from it almost a year.
Most were county cases(welfare and or gov payees) some were private pay and
or a combination of private and county services.
Your doctor/medical professional should also be able to help you connect with in-home care services.

 

[Andrew2592]

Praying for you & your wife Also Welcome To CF!

 

[simplySummer]

Praying for you both....

 

[mnorian]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. <staff edit> I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

Even the Apostle Paul said he was ready to go home to Jesus:

"For I am hard-pressed between the two, having a desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better." Philippians 1:23. So it is not unusual for Christians to get tired of the life in this sinful and painful world and look forward to the one with Jesus; where He will wipe away all tears.

 

[redleghunter]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. <staff edit> I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

Heavenly Father this wonderful couple needs Your Loving and Healing Hands. Lift them up and make your presence known to them. Bring them loving and local Christian love. Lord they need some helping hands please bring them.

In the Name above all Names Your Sons Name Jesus Christ we pray,

Amen!

 

[teresa]

praying for you and your wife in the mighty name of Jesus according to 1 Peter 2:24

praying that the cause of your pain be healed in Jesus name

praying for your wife's needs as well

sorry for the lack of support you have received

praying that God's Holy angels surround you and lift you up

and that the Holy Spirit come to comfort you and show you want steps to take

praying for a complete and miraculous healing for you so that you can live and not die and declare the works of the Lord - Psalms 118:17

I will put in a prayer request at my church too...

pass it on

 

[teresa]

prayer chain

lets be on fire

 

[longwait]

I will keep you and your wife in my prayers. You were so blessed in the early stages of your married life and like Job I believe that God is testing your love for Him. If you will continue to praise Him in all your troubles. Just keep praising God in everything. That's what's meant by sacrifice of praise -when
things get so hard and tough you can't get yourself to praise the Lord but still do. There are rewards in doing that. Be encouraged.

 

[DreamerOfTheHeart]

Hi Folks,
My wife and I gave our hearts and lives to Jesus back in the early part of the 1980's. We married a few years before in 1976. What followed was an amazing blessed life, a whole lot of Love, an adopted child that gave us years of joy. <staff edit> I was always discovering little evidences of the Lord's support and blessings. I could feel praise "burst" from me at times.
Then, around the year 2000 things started to change, my wife's RA got bad and she needed very specialized surgery to rebuild her hips. I worked for IBM at the time, and they moved us to Denver, CO where they was one of the very few surgeons who could perform the operation, another blessing, no doubt from our Lord. What followed was not so good. My wife was in intense pain for years, her pain and the demands of my job started taking its toll on me as well. She was helped by going into a swimming pool, and I took here often as I could to the local indoor pool, but it was not enough. So in 2006, I asked my employer for a transfer to Florida, and we sold our house and moved to a house in the Jacksonville, FL with a heated pool she could use year round. This worked, in a few months she got enough relief to lead a normal life.
The toll on me increased however, and my health started to unravel, chronic neck pain, sleep apnea, high blood pressure and depression. In 2009 they implanted a pain pump, which helped for a few years, but I then ran into serious issues with the pump, and had some episodes of intense pain. During one of those episodes I lost my will to live, and have never been able to uncross that threshold.
What is even more troublesome, in the local Christian Church who abandoned us when we needed help the most. When I was healthy I supported this Church with time, talents and treasury. Our 'home' Church in New York helped us many times, and I knew their support was a call away, even the Church in Colorado was there for us while my wife was sick. I am leaving out names and details, its not important, I know Churchs are full of sinners like me. But, I feel like I have lost touch with the Holy Spirit, which is so difficult. Its not a matter of faith, I know Jesus is real, and is the Son of God, I know the the Holy Spirit is real and lives in me, I just can't feel it anymore. I just keep telling myself that my current medical issues are interfering with my connections to my Spiritual side.
I am in constant pain, my poor wife is in near panic state because of me, and don't know where to turn to, or how it get help. I Pray as much as can, but I find it hard to focus, and the Prayers unusually wind up turning into pleas to take me home.
Prayers needed please, any thoughts would be greatly appreciated. I believe Corporate Prayers work.

As John said, if the word of Jesus abides in you, then so does Jesus.

Keep to the words of Jesus foremost in considering these problems. Forgive those who have debts against you, without question, and move on.

For pains and physical troubles, you must consider how the poor beggar lepers and other folks were with Jesus. What was working in their heart to build up such amazing faith? Somehow, even before they met Jesus, the word was working in their hearts.

Open your heart by embracing the word, which leads us to forgive others and judge them with great mercy and kindness. As we do so, we can rest assured, because His word tells us so, so shall such a good measure be applied to us.

That is heart work. That is a process within.

Go over all your many thoughts, especially any sore ones you have with anyone else, and re-judge everything as much as you can. Be as the sinner who went and cancelled everyone's debts. Do so in your heart. It takes time. It requires faith that such thoughts deeply matter and are seen by God.

They are.

God can show you and verify the truthfulness of His word, to keep you on the right path. The path that few find.

Start anew. Open your heart to that.

Everything that was can be gone, and everything can be renewed and as new.

 

[JCFantasy23]

Im so sorry - you are in my prayers.

Pain is exhausting and really breaks down the will to fight and be motivated. I am praying for the pain to ease, for your wife as well, and that you feel the full strength of God again.