I slipped

[wifemotheraddict]

I am a 14 year on/off pain pill addict. I can go without them, but when they are around I will take them. I was having a really bad week and I called my dentist and he called in a prescription of lortab for me. Of course it was only for 12 pills, but after I had taken them all I have a tremendous feeling of guilt and low self worth. I ask that you pray for me.

 

[drich0150]

Pain meds are just as serious as any other drug I hope your not trying to do this alone, or that "We" are your only source of accountablity. I think if your not already, you should enrole in NA some other support group.. because besides prayers there little we can actually do. With out support those "feelings" will eventually lead to more drugs. If you could have stoped on your own by this point in your life I'm sure you would have.

 

[BlessEwe]

When our brain finds the relief of stress ect. through a substance/ or a external situation, it will always crave this way when desiring a release of dopamines. ( a natural calming balancing hormone) I agree with drich0150 to find a support group because it is very difficult to go on will power.
Yes, God is the way to recovery as well as with others who crave just like us. The craving happens in the subconscious, so this is why we slip and blow it without even thinking about it. and we feel horrible.

This is why maintenance of a good NA meeting is excellent to keep ourselves in check and accountable, because will power just can't work alone especially in early recovery.

God Bless

 

[vvincelli]

No offense kid, but where are your parents?

I wasn't even aware that a juvenile could call in his own prescription with the Doctor. Or did your parents have knowledge about this?

If not, get your parents involved. Even if you've stopped taking them (run out), it's not gonna end. In life, you're gonna have way too many oppurtunities to get into worse stuff.

Don't let low self-esteem bring you down, that's just a false emotion (your mind tricking itself). But you should really consider getting your parents involved. You're early enough into the problem to keep it from becoming a full-blown addiction, but if you wait, you may never get away from it.

- V

 

[nowhereville]

That's part of the cycle actually - you feel bad - pain pills will alleviate (albeit temporarily) the "negative emtions" you are having. It's the oldest trick in the book actually. The thing that makes you feel "so good" ultimate makes you "feel bad" and hence you need more.

You can forego all pain meds and simply use ibeprofin (sp?) or you may ask someone to hold them for you and give them to you as needed.

It's time to break the cycle.

 

[TheMainException]

No offense kid, but where are your parents?

I wasn't even aware that a juvenile could call in his own prescription with the Doctor. Or did your parents have knowledge about this?

- V

She's actually 41, she's been addicted for 14 years.

wifemotheraddict: If you let the guilt weigh you down, it may make the fight to get away from them much harder. Try looking at things this way: You've made a mistake, okay...it's not the end of the world. Move forward and set a goal...think of the longest you've ever gone without them...then add a realistic time period on top of that. If you've gone three months without them, try going four months. If you've only ever gone a month, try going 45 days. If you slip up before then, okay, set the date again and keep trying. If you pass the date, set another.

Most importantly, get someone to help you stay accountable. I've found that it's MUCH easier to stay away from the chemical of choice when there is something who knows what is going on and what is being done about it.