note: i am not well at the time i wrote this post, but i tried my hardest to make this post as "normal" as possible.
i will try to keep this post short but anyway..
i am a 26 year old young man who has struggled with drug abuse AND drug-induced mental illness.
i started getting into hard street drugs when i was 17, and that lasted till i was 24. i developed my mental illness with use of crystal meth. which i quit after 6 months and didnt go anywhere near it, till just recently
and this is scary.. because its meth! the drug that hurt me the most... my drug of choice has always been cocaine, even back then, but i had access to lots of free meth.. lucky me.. not
ive quit drugs many times before, but only had 2 clean periods that lasted long. well long for me at least. the first time, i quit for 7 months, and was still was miserable and depressed, just not nearly as much as when i was in my addiction but anyways. THEN, after the relapse night after the 7 months clean time, probably near a year later i again hit a huge rock bottom, and decided to go to a recovery house. here's where my life story begins, is one was i like to look at it
oh i should quickly add, i have always believed in "God" but just not Jesus (which i find almost embarrassing now, cuz im super christian
), not really because i didnt believe in him, it was more that i was not aware, or maybe even unsure about him.
the recovery home i joined has bible studies, because they are a christian based recovery home. and 2 weeks into my stay in this recovery home, i became christian at the bible study, and after that my life changed sooo much!
this time i stayed clean for 11 months! and UNLIKE my 7 months experience, this was the best 11 months of my life (at the time) and i found happiness in Christ that forever changed me.
so after that 11 months, i used twice then quit for (i think) about 6-7 months later bringing us to now....
ill try to make this shorter
remember earlier i mentioned my drug of choice was always cocaine, well thats because i wasnt ever as troubled with cocaine than crystal, BUT NOW its opposite, not only have i relapsed again, this time its with meth, the drug that caused me SO MUCH pain and my family
sorry this post is so long, but i am so desperate to change. ive ALWAYS fought my addiction.. im worried.. i wanna stop.. now
the Lord has really blessed me greatly and helped me with some of my other prayers, now im praying and very faithful that this prayer will be answered as well, which is to stay away from drugs FOREVER
i am planning on going back to school this September. for the first time since i went back to finish grade 12, when i was (i think) 22 or so
and i really want to change by then, i KNOW i can do it with the help of Jesus
sorry it was so long but, i just really couldnt make it any shorter, i felt that it was all necessary. but thank you for reading! my main motive to post here is for advice or suggestions, or even real life experiences, and some inspiration
thank you, God bless
i will try to keep this post short but anyway..
i am a 26 year old young man who has struggled with drug abuse AND drug-induced mental illness.
i started getting into hard street drugs when i was 17, and that lasted till i was 24. i developed my mental illness with use of crystal meth. which i quit after 6 months and didnt go anywhere near it, till just recently
and this is scary.. because its meth! the drug that hurt me the most... my drug of choice has always been cocaine, even back then, but i had access to lots of free meth.. lucky me.. not
ive quit drugs many times before, but only had 2 clean periods that lasted long. well long for me at least. the first time, i quit for 7 months, and was still was miserable and depressed, just not nearly as much as when i was in my addiction but anyways. THEN, after the relapse night after the 7 months clean time, probably near a year later i again hit a huge rock bottom, and decided to go to a recovery house. here's where my life story begins, is one was i like to look at it
oh i should quickly add, i have always believed in "God" but just not Jesus (which i find almost embarrassing now, cuz im super christian
), not really because i didnt believe in him, it was more that i was not aware, or maybe even unsure about him. the recovery home i joined has bible studies, because they are a christian based recovery home. and 2 weeks into my stay in this recovery home, i became christian at the bible study, and after that my life changed sooo much!
this time i stayed clean for 11 months! and UNLIKE my 7 months experience, this was the best 11 months of my life (at the time) and i found happiness in Christ that forever changed me.
so after that 11 months, i used twice then quit for (i think) about 6-7 months later bringing us to now....
ill try to make this shorter
remember earlier i mentioned my drug of choice was always cocaine, well thats because i wasnt ever as troubled with cocaine than crystal, BUT NOW its opposite, not only have i relapsed again, this time its with meth, the drug that caused me SO MUCH pain and my family
sorry this post is so long, but i am so desperate to change. ive ALWAYS fought my addiction.. im worried.. i wanna stop.. now
the Lord has really blessed me greatly and helped me with some of my other prayers, now im praying and very faithful that this prayer will be answered as well, which is to stay away from drugs FOREVER
i am planning on going back to school this September. for the first time since i went back to finish grade 12, when i was (i think) 22 or so
and i really want to change by then, i KNOW i can do it with the help of Jesus
sorry it was so long but, i just really couldnt make it any shorter, i felt that it was all necessary. but thank you for reading! my main motive to post here is for advice or suggestions, or even real life experiences, and some inspiration
thank you, God bless
