I really gotta rant!

[memoriesbymichelle]

Thanks, sis. I guess I should rant more often, eh?

rant, blog, write, or you could WRITE or hey, here's an idea, you should be a WRITER! The answer is YES!!!!

So now you should be practicing your Sally Fields speech "you like me!" LOL

 

[Bill Shadowcat]

Thanks for the welcomes, y'all. I'm trying to post more on CF nowadays as it seems like a pretty good board and the other boards I post at (Evanescence fan groups, mostly) are pretty slow anymore.

 

[polarized]

miss-a,
I not only read it, but despite your pain I enjoyed your witty personality as this shone throughout your rant. I'd say some things regarding your landlord, but since this is a Christian board I won't. I so get what you are saying about trying to make this world your home, and still being shocked at those around us. I am with you there! Your idea about helping out the church/community garden is great! But I wouldn't cut down your hard work at home just yet. I would let it come to its natural conclusion for the season at least.

 

[miss-a]

miss-a,
I not only read it, but despite your pain I enjoyed your witty personality as this shone throughout your rant. I'd say some things regarding your landlord, but since this is a Christian board I won't. I so get what you are saying about trying to make this world your home, and still being shocked at those around us. I am with you there! Your idea about helping out the church/community garden is great! But I wouldn't cut down your hard work at home just yet. I would let it come to its natural conclusion for the season at least.

I'm with you on that. I didn't cut down the flowers. I'm going to let them continue through their season. And the veggies as well.

As for this not being our home, I think it's so important that we get that and sometimes so hard to stop trying to make it feel like home. I hope this whole incident will help me to stop doing that. It's okay to try to enjoy as much as possible while we're here, but we've got to remember we're just passing though. Way better than the best we could or have ever experienced here is waiting for us at Home.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I-A1u-Zfal8

 

[miss-a]

Hey, would you guys pray for me if you think of it. I feel like I have a touch of PTSD going on from having had a mad man pound on my door unexpectedly and have him continue when it was clear I didn't intend to answer. It's really unnerving to have that happen, and I'm finding myself fearing that he'll make a habit of it. I'm a little creeped out and bugged at myself that I can't just shake it off.

thanks so much,
a

 

[dayhiker]

Hi miss-a ... sorry your had that happen to you. I pray God would comfort you.

I think you are feeling the fear, flight or freeze sensation and your body is being flooded with adrenaline. When our body is flooded with adrenaline its important to allow your body to shake or run till you burn off all that adrenaline.

Mark

 

[Doctor Strangelove]

Miss-a, can you ask your landlord to phone you before coming over? That is stressful, someone banging on the door and you are not sure who it is or what it is about. He does not exactly sound like the most thoughtful person.

 

[blackribbon]

miss-a

I finally had a chance to read your original "rant" ... this has been a long month with problems that make focusing an issue so I avoid anything long (though I guess I written some myself) ... anyway, I will pray for you and your anxiety...(because I do get it).

I also want to also take a moment to also point out that you are truly a beautiful and gifted writer. I hope you either take the time to finish one of those novels or find a different market for your wonderful writing. We live in a world where words don't paint pictures any more..but you are an artist.

 

[miss-a]

Thanks, Dayhiker, for the reminder that stress hormones make controlling the mind very difficult.

Thanks, Blackribbon. Prayers for the complications in your life. When my injuries heal, which I think will only be a couple of weeks, I'm considering paddling my kayak out on a lake and refusing to come in until everyone on the planet agrees to either behave or be quiet. I have two kayaks. Your welcome to come. I'll let you use the best one. As for the writing, I'm going to find a way to get it done, hopefully and prayerfully sooner rather than later. Prayers always appreciated. Beth Moore (though I'm not claiming to be the next Beth Moore), actually had literally one thousand people praying for her when writing When Godly People Do Ungodly Things, because the attacks from the enemy were so bad trying to prevent it. And I have a very old note from a sermon years ago that says, "Any word blessed by God will come under attack." Though I know that when the attacks come it is because our Dad has a reason to allow them, and that reason is for resulting good, I think prayer helps to keep us standing and moving in His direction, rather than giving up.

Thanks, Doc. Yes, when I pay rent next week I will put a note in requesting that he call and save the trip--and the lawsuit--well, I won't mention that. But I did look online and though tenants have few rights, he managed to violate two of them by doing that. I don't think mentioning it at this point is prudent. Hopefully, just like the broken mower on my part, this outburst and lack of good judgement was a fluke on his. Meanwhile, today is a much needed day off and I'm refusing to evacuate, though it was tempting. I put a note on the door that says I'm resting my injured leg and not answering today.

Thanks, all, you're the best,

a















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[memoriesbymichelle]

A song for you miss-a

"Where I Belong" - YouTube

I hope you feel better soon and just try not to let ignorant people get the best of your emotions. Save your emotions for your writing which truly is fabulous and I think God is speaking to you now to finish a novel or two or three.

 

[miss-a]

A song for you miss-a

"Where I Belong" - YouTube

I hope you feel better soon and just try not to let ignorant people get the best of your emotions. Save your emotions for your writing which truly is fabulous and I think God is speaking to you now to finish a novel or two or three.

Thanks, Michelle! I think you're right on both counts. This is not my home and I do need to get back to writing.