I need some prayer

[Thru The Ashes]

I need some prayer. I have come to realize that I may be holding unforgiveness toward God. I don't want to be mad at my creator, I am really close to Him and am in love with Him. BUT, I find myself discouraged in Him every time a certain incident of the past cause me pain again. I experienced an excruciating situation that God had control of, NOT CAUSED, a situation that hurt very deeply. I want the looming fear of its return to leave. I became closer to God because of it, but have no desire to experience it again. I am afraid to say remove the fear at any cost, because I am afraid that I will hurt over something worse. I need release of this bondage.
The situation was adultery. My husband left me for someone else for a year. My husband came home, and we are working on things. I am not contentious, snooping, or rude to him. We don't bring up our past, and He and I have treated each other better than ever since we have laid our differences down. I love my husband dearly and hate it when I hurt over this all over again, because he is sorry. I just don't know what to do. I know that God wants us to be faithful to Him and wants all of the high places torn down in our lives that were once idolatrous to Him, I just want my husband to be faithful. This problem is mine, I don't want this to be between God and me. I want to worship Him 100% of the time, not just when I am "NOT HURT OVER THIS."

 

[GMRELIC]

My prayers are with you and your husband, God Bless you

 

[haya]

Psalm 18:2
The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer;
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.

Psalm 40:1-3, 17
I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear
and put their trust in the LORD.

Yet I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay.

Abba Father, You alone are the DELIVERER. Only You can fully deliver Your children from the pain of our past. Only You can truly heal us, Lord God!
And the best part is You are willing! You love us immensely and want to give us good gifts, and You want us to draw closer to You in love and faith -- trusting in You. This is not outside Your will for us, Your desire for us, even Your plan for us!
Heavenly Father, I lift up my sister Thru the Ashes to You. Be her deliverer, Lord! Deliver her from the pain and the fear. Give her "Manasseh," Lord! (Genesis 41:51) Help her to praise You as her Comforter, her Stronghold. Holy Spirit You are her Comforter. (John 14:16)
Lord Jesus, enrich her times of prayer and fellowship with You. Show Yourself to her, show Your love and glory and presence to her, Lord Jesus. Increase her love and devotion to You, her desire for You above everything and anything else, and her worship of You. You are unchanging; bring new songs of worship to her lips, Lord God! Amen.

 

[Live4God]

haya, PRAYing Now! GOD BLESS YOU! L4G!

 

[caitlincares]

Praying

 

[thirstforGod]

Even though you may be mad at God, he still loves you and understands.

Ill pray for you and your husband and that you may find comfort in trusting him again.

 

[devoted daughter]

For you and your husband; Mat the Lord protect you, and give you patience and discernment. MAy you have strength and peace.

 

[Cat59]

For you and your husband; May the Lord protect you, and give you patience and discernment. MAy you have strength and peace.

Amen

 

[silentpoet]

While I have not had a spouse walk out on me, I too have had incidents happen in my life that make it hard for me to trust fully in God. Sometimes you have to keep on trusting when you do not trust, I know that sounds contradictory but it is about the best way I can explain it. Maybe you must act as you have faith to gain faith. I do not know, it is something I struggle with too. I will pray for you.