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I am hoping to go to vigil mass tonight, for the Feast of Mary Mother of God . . .
I will offer prayers for you . . .
Hold on . . and trust God to keep you . . .
AT . . .can I ask how deep or strong your faith regarding Mary is and her role in the Church? I ask as entrusting yourself to her care is truly giving yourself into her safe keeping . . .
Satan wishes that we fear . . . for there is no fear where perfect love reigns . . . Of course, he does not wish for perfect love, or even love that comes anywhere near perfect love, to reign in our hearts, for perfect love casts out fear . .
(2Ti 1:7) For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
(1Jo 4:18) There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
I think all of us here can safely say we have not yet been made perfect in love. . .
We cannot trust in our own ability to keep us from falling away . . . we cannot have confidence in our own efforts, our own self, to remain true . . . For even the great and wise among us, even if they think they are solely relying on Christ, may in actuality be relying on themselves . .. and God will allow them to fall, to reveal to them their pride they had hidden even from themselves . ..
It is humility to rely on another to help keep you, to keep for you what God has given you . . . and this is why I ask about Mary . . .
One of the things that really struck home with me when I read DeMontfort's True Devotion to Mary was about this very issue . . .and that, how, if we choose not to rely on ourselves, but give ourselves and all the graces God gives us into her safe keeping, to keep for us, they are never lost . . .
I do not know where you are at concerning Mary, but if I may be so bold as to encourage you to entrust yourself to her . . for I have found that when you do so, the burdens and fears such as you have described begin to lift . .
This does not mean we do not fall . . .but it does mean that even when we do, we have Mary's care and intercession . . .and that is a lot!
God be with you, bless you and keep you in the palm of His hand.
Peace in Him!