I need some advice here about a work

[Kostilaks]

My ocd is telling me that I may have made a fast promise to God not to work in a specific workplace.

I remember having thoughts about it like "its ok if they do not call me back for the job, it is not that good job, so I do not care and maybe it would trigger my ocd working there"

They called me and now my ocd is telling me that I may have made a promise not to work there. for what reason?

ocd: maybe you did because you wanted to have a risky game with God, for fun, or because you were bored. maybe you did it because you knew they are not going to offer you the job so you thought it was a good idea to make a real promise for fun because you knew that you were not going ever to work there or maybe you did just to stop caring at all for this job. plenty of motives.

I remember nothing of what ocd says, but a part of my subconscious if I let it imagine this scary hypothetical scenarios of my ocd, it freaks and says stuff like " that is so scary but also rings a bell. maybe the ocd is right. maybe it happened"

why my subconscious has ringing bells of memories about it? If I allow my mind to have flashbacks of that day, somehow, my subconscious or a part of it is like " that happened! maybe it happened" "maybe you made a fast promise that you cant remember because you never believed that you were going to work there" "maybe it was just a bet or fun deal with God" "maybe you asked for a punishment"

what should I do about my work? I am so afraid to make a promise that I prayed a lot about it all these months. I have forbidden myself to think or have words like "promises" for whatever reason. was I that careless that I actually made a maybe promise to God just for fun? why I cant remember?

 

[public hermit]

Kostilaks, you can't remember because you didn't make the promise. As you know, it's the ocd.

More importantly, did you get the job? It sounds to me like you did! Congratulations!!!

This is good. It will help keep your mind busy. Plus, you will have some folding money. Take the job and give it your best! We're rooting for you, Kostilaks!!

 

[Kostilaks]

what made you believe in Jesus?

 

[public hermit]

Kostilaks, I was desperate. I was so empty and hopeless. I just gave up and he stepped in. I started to read the scriptures. I started going to church. I was at the end of my rope and so I simply trusted the gospel I was told. When people told me something I listened and did what they said, because I knew my best ideas had gotten me into trouble.

I have been a Christian for a little over twenty years. It hasn't always been easy, but he has never let me down. Things didn't change over night, but as I look back they are so much better now. Knowing that God loves us, that God is for us, makes all the difference in the world. I know God loves you too, Kostilaks. Jesus died so you could have fulfilling life, both now and forever. God's grace is sufficient, for sure.

 

[Kostilaks]

how I know if Jesus is real? there are so many religions...

 

[public hermit]

If you want to know you have to begin with trust. That means learning from those who know, and doing the things he taught us to do. Find a church near you and let them guide you. It starts with trust and in time you will know. But, you will never know unless you begin with trust.

Trust Jesus enough to find a church. Start there and let them know you are seeking. They will help you in your search. Trust Jesus by trusting those who trust in Him. That's what I did. They said, "Read the bible and pray." So, I did it. They said, "Get baptized." So, I did it. They said, "Try to love people and help people." So, I did it. That's how you start to know. It may sound strange but it works. We come to know Jesus is real, together.

 

[Kostilaks]

what about people who have other religions? why they have other religions?

 

[public hermit]

I can't speak to that, Kostilaks. I only know one Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. I can only share with you my own experience, strength, and hope.

 

[Kostilaks]

have you ever had a vision or a miracle or a sign?

 

[public hermit]

I have had a couple intense experiences. But, those are not the basis of my faith. The basis of my faith is that God loves me and that this love is revealed through Jesus Christ. He loved us so much that he died for us so that we might live. That's true love, Kostilaks. But for me, the biggest miracle I have seen in person is that I am still alive and I have hope. I was going down a bad road, Kostilaks. I am at peace, and that too is a miracle, because I wasn't before.