I need help

[Kostilaks]

I have ocd probably and feel bad for it. bad thoughts and coincidences ruin my day. I am planning to confess my sins to a priest today for the first time. But... Something worries me. I used to get attacked by thoughts that are not mine that think bad things and I say to God many times that these are not mine and not to happen. Today, a bad thought came when I was thinking about confession. it was not mine! the thought was request punishment from God for going to confession today. I feared and wanted to say to God not to punish me as I always do. the problem is that when I opened my mouth to say that I somehow made a mistake and missed the word "not" (in greek I think). instead of be like " do not punish me" it came out as "do punish me". now I am having second thoughts about going to confession today. I fear If it counts cause I said it with my lips. I did not want any of that. please pray for me. I need some pray for strength

 

[HeDeliveredMe]

Can you make phone calls to the US? 1-904-403-1908 trying to figure out how i can talk to you, it will take too long to type it all. I have been freed from everything you are experiencing through Christ.