So a little back story of me and how all this came about you see even before I was saved I had a supernatural experience with God I was all alone in my room weeping and in desperation I called out to God saying God if you are really are real I need you to show me I need to know I am not all alone in this world. That very night I fell asleep and awoke in a pure white place in front of me was a river of rainbow colors far more vivid and far more beautiful than anything you will ever see on earth it's beauty was so intense I was in tears bawling and standing next me on me lef was God the father not in physical form but in spiritual and he spoke to me without using his voice saying the river was his plan.
I have no idea to this day if that plan was his plan for my life or for the world or both but all I could do was say thank you to him in my tears for showing me this over and over until the dream ended. when I awoke I still was not ready to be saved but later I would once again be in my room feeling the same alone sad and didn't even care if I died, I cried out to him once again and said I don't care if you have tot ake everything I own just please come into my heart in my tears I went to be saying to myself he won't answer me even I wouldn't answer me.
However the next morning the second I woke up I was filled with an unbelievable fire this fire was full of life and the power of God it's no where near the same as being full of energy I could feel the holy spirit burning intensely inside me and all around me.
This was my day of salvation and ever since I have experienced strange things I have had spiritual encounters with both demons and an angel I have received prophetic dreams I have been to places not on this earth but more strangely is I receive what some call visions but I don't.
You see I see things with my minds eye or maybe it's called the spiritual eye Idk but whenever I met the angel I saw him with my minds eye not my physical when I encountered a demon again my minds eye but i see things all the time that i used to call prophetic daydreams. They are images or scenarios that will suddenly appear in my minds eyes they can affected me deeply and when they happen I cannot stop them and I feel things I cannot describe.
For instance I had one in which I was just taking a shower when suddenly I was or rather I saw a lake with living water the water itself was filled with life unlike water here it was bright as if it glowed and was so clean and if you tasted it would be the sweetest and most amazing thing you ever tasted or ever will. surrounding this lake was beautiful nature trees flowers grass so much more vibrant so much more healthier so much more beautiful than anything on earth due to the quality of the water from the lake I am talking lushes and deep green grass that feels like the finest silk tress and flowers berries all kinds of things beyond recognition.
And in the lake was me and my friend the holy spirit I was like a small playful and innocent child in spirit heart and even body no more than maybe four or five years old looking and he and I were so happy it was a blissful and holy feeling just seeing this place it wasn't heaven but it seemed like a special place specifically for him and I after this ended I was stunned and amazed and in awe and so full of love and joy as if he was expressing his feelings for me.
when I see these things it's as if I am actually there but I am still here I am still conscious of what I am doing in this world. This is just one of the things I am hoping to get help from someone who knows about this and can actually explain to me these things
I have no idea to this day if that plan was his plan for my life or for the world or both but all I could do was say thank you to him in my tears for showing me this over and over until the dream ended. when I awoke I still was not ready to be saved but later I would once again be in my room feeling the same alone sad and didn't even care if I died, I cried out to him once again and said I don't care if you have tot ake everything I own just please come into my heart in my tears I went to be saying to myself he won't answer me even I wouldn't answer me.
However the next morning the second I woke up I was filled with an unbelievable fire this fire was full of life and the power of God it's no where near the same as being full of energy I could feel the holy spirit burning intensely inside me and all around me.
This was my day of salvation and ever since I have experienced strange things I have had spiritual encounters with both demons and an angel I have received prophetic dreams I have been to places not on this earth but more strangely is I receive what some call visions but I don't.
You see I see things with my minds eye or maybe it's called the spiritual eye Idk but whenever I met the angel I saw him with my minds eye not my physical when I encountered a demon again my minds eye but i see things all the time that i used to call prophetic daydreams. They are images or scenarios that will suddenly appear in my minds eyes they can affected me deeply and when they happen I cannot stop them and I feel things I cannot describe.
For instance I had one in which I was just taking a shower when suddenly I was or rather I saw a lake with living water the water itself was filled with life unlike water here it was bright as if it glowed and was so clean and if you tasted it would be the sweetest and most amazing thing you ever tasted or ever will. surrounding this lake was beautiful nature trees flowers grass so much more vibrant so much more healthier so much more beautiful than anything on earth due to the quality of the water from the lake I am talking lushes and deep green grass that feels like the finest silk tress and flowers berries all kinds of things beyond recognition.
And in the lake was me and my friend the holy spirit I was like a small playful and innocent child in spirit heart and even body no more than maybe four or five years old looking and he and I were so happy it was a blissful and holy feeling just seeing this place it wasn't heaven but it seemed like a special place specifically for him and I after this ended I was stunned and amazed and in awe and so full of love and joy as if he was expressing his feelings for me.
when I see these things it's as if I am actually there but I am still here I am still conscious of what I am doing in this world. This is just one of the things I am hoping to get help from someone who knows about this and can actually explain to me these things