Hi, I am a 20 year old female. I have watched porn on and off since about age 12. I do not watch it regularly and I would definitely not say I am addicted by any means.
When I watched porn, I would also watch lesbian porn. I never wanted to practise this in my daily life or even thought anything of it. Last night, I watched it and then I had a fleeting thought "Does this mean I am gay?". Ever since then I have been panicking and worrying and stressing about this.
I have always mainly been attracted to males, sexually and romantically. I have had boyfriends in the past of 2 years, 1 years etc. I have never saw women that way or wanted to be with a woman. I have always dreamed of marrying a man and having a family. I even went to an all girls school from 16-18 and that sparked nothing.
However, ever since I have been panicking, I have looked into my past and found about 1 occasions where I have was curious about a female...but I have never wanted to act on it or be in a relationship with them. Perhaps it was the pornography that sparked all of that curiosity.
I am now freaking out and wondering about all of this. Ever since last night, the devil has been putting this panic inside me and added even more impure and perverse thoughts.
I have made a decision to stop watching porn, start going to church and recommit myself to jesus. But I am upset about having these thoughts and whether they make me gay. Please please help me I do not want this to take over my life and I feel that my brain is convincing me that I am gay. Please help, this all started last night and I want it to stop now.
When I watched porn, I would also watch lesbian porn. I never wanted to practise this in my daily life or even thought anything of it. Last night, I watched it and then I had a fleeting thought "Does this mean I am gay?". Ever since then I have been panicking and worrying and stressing about this.
I have always mainly been attracted to males, sexually and romantically. I have had boyfriends in the past of 2 years, 1 years etc. I have never saw women that way or wanted to be with a woman. I have always dreamed of marrying a man and having a family. I even went to an all girls school from 16-18 and that sparked nothing.
However, ever since I have been panicking, I have looked into my past and found about 1 occasions where I have was curious about a female...but I have never wanted to act on it or be in a relationship with them. Perhaps it was the pornography that sparked all of that curiosity.
I am now freaking out and wondering about all of this. Ever since last night, the devil has been putting this panic inside me and added even more impure and perverse thoughts.
I have made a decision to stop watching porn, start going to church and recommit myself to jesus. But I am upset about having these thoughts and whether they make me gay. Please please help me I do not want this to take over my life and I feel that my brain is convincing me that I am gay. Please help, this all started last night and I want it to stop now.