I need help!! And Someone to talk to!!

[Mediakira]

My whole world has changed so much. When I gave my life to God and Jesus Christ. My twin sister and I has gotten the same illness "Schizophrenia". And I do believe God is trying to kill the illness in me. I feel body pains, and having a hard time to relax. The more I clive to God, I get more uncomfortable. I feel better just hearing and watching shows that relate to God and Jesus Christ. And nothing else. I spend months watch TBN 24/7. Now I'm getting picky on what pastor to watch, and then I'm bored.

I just feel awful. But I love the Lord. I do remember that on TBN that serve the Lord isn't painless. My body is not normal. It's actually against me. My body is against me.

I use to be a Otaku and watch and play anime and video games. Just because I fell into a senario that thought that I was sharing one flesh with Cartoon characters. Like Inuyasha, Luke fon Fabre, etc. I didn't mean to, and I know better. But it just happened, and I was stuck following the Lord this way. I'm sick and God is helping. But I'm currectly stuck where I can't watch anime or play games because I love them characters. I want to give them salvation so bad. But now, I haven't been doing any characters stuff for a while. I can't watch them anymore. Hints the picture of my avatar because I'm under the experance on how he feels.

I need help! I need some help to find things to do. I'm getting bored not watch anime.

Please stop by and leave a comment. I really need someone to talk to. Thanks.

 

[GraceSeeker]

Mediakira,
It is good that you feel that you can talk about these issues and feelings here, so I want to support your openness. I also want to ask if you think an online community is going to be your best source of help? If you really need someone to talk to, I want to encourage you to find someone that you can talk to face-to-face. 1 friend in real life will be worth more than a dozen virtual friends that you only know online.

Now, that isn't always easy, and in some circumstances may not even be possible. But you have to try. It is the best option for you. If you don't know where to start, I would encourage you to become part of a small group, people with whom you have similar interests. A Sunday school class or a Bible study is a good place to start, but don't limit it to religious groups. If you like to cook, find people who also like to cook (perhaps by taking a class at a community college), or at least who like to eat and you can cook for them. There are many sports leagues for bowling or softball depending on the season. Some YMCAs are great places to meet people for a pick-up game of basketball or to work out together. How about community organizations such as Rotary, Kiwanas, or Lion's Club?

I'm just throwing out suggestions. Since I'm not in your community, I really don't know what is and isn't realistic for you, and that lack of knowledge about the context in which you live is exactly why you need someone other than a virtual friend to be there for you. Of course, there are some things that are more difficult than just your average friend with no professional experience will be able to help with -- even when they really do care and want to try. In such a case, it is important to find a professional counselor. And though I am a pastor, and sometimes counsel people on certain issues, I've learned that few of us pastors are sufficiently trained in mental health issues to be the primary go-to person for anyone with serious mental illness. Just like every other illness this needs a doctor or other trained medical professional.

I'm sorry if I've responded in a way other than you may have anticipated and hoped for. I do hope you find someone to talk to, and I'm not saying to never post online. Just, please, don't depend on this place to be the answer. The best we can do is provide a supplement to fill in a few gaps. But we can't actually be for you the same as a real friend and you shouldn't accept any lessor substitute because you're worth more than that. Even after many years as a part of this community, and feeling very friendly toward nearly everyone here, I don't believe that I could call even one person my friend in the sense that the people I see as a part of my regular life actually are. And I know you will want that genuine friendship as well.

 

[Emmy]

Dear Mediakira. I know what you mean, and you have to start somewhere. Jesus gave us good advice,
In Matthew 22: 35-40: " The first and great Commandment is: Love God with all thy heart, with all thy soul,
and with all thy mind. The second is like it: love thy neighbour as thyself." In verse 40 we are told: " On these two Commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets." Love is what we all need, and God is Love and God wants loving sons and daughters. In Matthew 7: 7-10: we are told: " ask and you shall receive," we ask God for Love and Joy, then thank God and share all love and joy with our neighbour. ( neighbour is all we know and all we meet, friends and not friends) We keep asking for Love and Joy, then thank God and share all love and joy with our neighbour.
The Bible tell us: " Repent and be Born Again," we give up being selfish and unloving, and start loving and caring, being kind and always friendly. God will see our loving efforts, and God will Bless us.
The Holy Spirit will help and guide us, and Jesus our Saviour will lead us all the way: JESUS IS THE WAY. We follow Jesus on a path of love and joy, we smile kindly and give a helping hand to all around us. We all need friends and
kindness, and before long someone will talk to us. God knows our hearts, and Jesus is our leader, Satan and his followers will flee from us. A smile and kind words will always give us friendly company. We might stumble and forget at times, then we ask God to forgive us and carry on loving and caring. I say this with love, Mediakira. Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

 

[food4thought]

My whole world has changed so much. When I gave my life to God and Jesus Christ. My twin sister and I has gotten the same illness "Schizophrenia". And I do believe God is trying to kill the illness in me. I feel body pains, and having a hard time to relax. The more I clive to God, I get more uncomfortable. I feel better just hearing and watching shows that relate to God and Jesus Christ. And nothing else. I spend months watch TBN 24/7. Now I'm getting picky on what pastor to watch, and then I'm bored.

I just feel awful. But I love the Lord. I do remember that on TBN that serve the Lord isn't painless. My body is not normal. It's actually against me. My body is against me.

I use to be a Otaku and watch and play anime and video games. Just because I fell into a senario that thought that I was sharing one flesh with Cartoon characters. Like Inuyasha, Luke fon Fabre, etc. I didn't mean to, and I know better. But it just happened, and I was stuck following the Lord this way. I'm sick and God is helping. But I'm currectly stuck where I can't watch anime or play games because I love them characters. I want to give them salvation so bad. But now, I haven't been doing any characters stuff for a while. I can't watch them anymore. Hints the picture of my avatar because I'm under the experance on how he feels.

I need help! I need some help to find things to do. I'm getting bored not watch anime.

Please stop by and leave a comment. I really need someone to talk to. Thanks.

Hi Mediakira. Even though I know next to nothing about anime, and nothing about Otaku, I would just like to say I understand some of what you are going through. I also struggle with some symptoms of Schizophrenia. I know that this makes GraceSeeker's advice to seek out face to face relationships very difficult for you (it does for me)... yet I have to agree that you need more than what an online community can offer, and I hope you are seeing a counselor to help keep you grounded in reality. I have found that my church's small group Bible study has been very good for me, and would encourage you to seek one out. Still, I welcome the opportunity to talk with you and offer what I can over the internet.

Don't feel bad about being picky with regard to which preachers you watch, as not everything on TBN has good doctrine (stay away from those guys that try to tell you that they will pray for you or offer healing if you send them money). It is fine to only watch those programs that are inspiring your heart. I also struggle with feeling bored with certain programs... let the Holy Spirit speak to you with regard to what to watch. I also know how difficult it can be to cleave to God when you are unsure how much you can trust your mind, but have faith that God is good... and don't listen to any inner voice that demonstrates it is not good.

I am currently taking Abillify to help manage my symptoms, are you taking anything? I've tried going off my meds before and the result was definitely not good, so I don't recommend it at all.

Feel free to start a private conversation with me by clicking on the link beneath my Avatar. Grace and peace to you;
Mike

 

[Mediakira]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I'll talk to a professional about My illness. It's good to get things off my chest.

 

[food4thought]

Thanks for sharing your thoughts. I'll talk to a professional about My illness. It's good to get things off my chest.

Yes, venting to someone, getting things out of my mind and into the open often helps me.

 

[GraceSeeker]

Don't feel bad about being picky with regard to which preachers you watch, as not everything on TBN has good doctrine (stay away from those guys that try to tell you that they will pray for you or offer healing if you send them money). It is fine to only watch those programs that are inspiring your heart. I also struggle with feeling bored with certain programs... let the Holy Spirit speak to you with regard to what to watch. I also know how difficult it can be to cleave to God when you are unsure how much you can trust your mind, but have faith that God is good... and don't listen to any inner voice that demonstrates it is not good.

For sure!! While I might occasionally watch some TBN, I could never make a regular diet of it. I find much of what passes for "good doctrine" on TBN to be spiritually nauseating. On the other hand, every now and then, something really speaks to me. But it is just very inconsistent.

 

[Dave-W]

Just because I fell into a senario that thought that I was sharing one flesh with Cartoon characters. Like Inuyasha, Luke fon Fabre, etc. I didn't mean to, and I know better. But it just happened,

This threw a red flag up for me. Can you explain (to someone not familiar with the anime world) exactly what that means?

The more I clive to God, I get more uncomfortable.

I also found this to be unsettling; but will wait for your other answer before commenting.

 

[Mediakira]

This threw a red flag up for me. Can you explain (to someone not familiar with the anime world) exactly what that means?


I also found this to be unsettling; but will wait for your other answer before commenting.

Anime means japanese cartoons. Some japanese called there cartoons "anime" because its more fancy. And some got translated in english. Then got amercian sales over here in America. My ex-boyfriend and twin sister has deeply got into. It became a collecting habit. I don't know how it happened. I just happened to share the same body with cartoon characters. God killed illness. I've been having an urge to ask the Almighty Father to make them and to be born on this good blessed Earth! Now I have to let go the rest.

I learned in anime or video games is that they are not socialized with God, or Christian values. I'm learning to kick that habit. I wrote this thread to learn what to watch or play video games that are clean.

I'm going through a withdraw on both.

My question is "what is goood? As a christian to get into. Is Mario clean?

 

[Dave-W]

Anime means japanese cartoons. Some japanese called there cartoons "anime" because its more fancy. And some got translated in english. Then got amercian sales over here in America.

That all I know as a couple of my kids were into anime.

I don't know how it happened. I just happened to share the same body with cartoon characters.

What do you mean "share the same body?" Is that the same as your previous statement "share one flesh?" (to me "one flesh" has a sexual connotation)

I learned in anime or video games is that they are not socialized with God, or Christian values.

Very true.

My question is "what is good? As a christian to get into. Is Mario clean?

My experience with Mario is back on the original NES. I do not know what Mario is now, but that was OK back in the day.

 

[Mediakira]

That all I know as a couple of my kids were into anime.

What do you mean "share the same body?" Is that the same as your previous statement "share one flesh?" (to me "one flesh" has a sexual connotation)

Very true.

My experience with Mario is back on the original NES. I do not know what Mario is now, but that was OK back in the day.

I don't know anymore. God killed those cartoon characters anyhow. I found out it was an illness in spirit form. It like the cartoon characters are living in my body.

I got rid of all the anime much as possible. I just can't touch anything that's not christian based. It has to be clean now. Or It's teaching me about God or Christ.

 

[Mediakira]

That all I know as a couple of my kids were into anime.

What do you mean "share the same body?" Is that the same as your previous statement "share one flesh?" (to me "one flesh" has a sexual connotation)

Very true.

My experience with Mario is back on the original NES. I do not know what Mario is now, but that was OK back in the day.

If your a good parent. You won't let any kid watch anime. Not too many japanese don't believe in christianity.

 

[Dave-W]

If your a good parent. You won't let any kid watch anime. Not too many japanese don't believe in christianity.

The first anime I saw was "Flying House" and "Super Book." Both were about bible stories.

 

[Mediakira]

The first anime I saw was "Flying House" and "Super Book." Both were about bible stories.

I didn't see those. I seen the dirty ones. lol

 

[food4thought]

I am sorry for your experience with anime, Mediakira. Are you actively participating in a church? We need face to face human contact to keep us grounded in reality, and a church is a good place to find kind and caring people. Also, you can't cut all that entertainment out of your life without replacing it with something, and I have found Bible study and small group meetings at my church to be helpful in this regard.

Praying for you!

 

[Mediakira]

I am sorry for your experience with anime, Mediakira. Are you actively participating in a church? We need face to face human contact to keep us grounded in reality, and a church is a good place to find kind and caring people. Also, you can't cut all that entertainment out of your life without replacing it with something, and I have found Bible study and small group meetings at my church to be helpful in this regard.

Praying for you!

I haven't participate in a church yet. But I have no car, and I'm to sick to drive. So, I'm a daily walker to anywhere I go. I sometimes take a local transit to take me places.

Right now I'm learning how to harvest like it says in the Bible. Because my name means harvest.

I do like watching "Chicago Fire" and "Chicago Med". I haven't stopped watching that. But I accidently over slept that last episode. lol

 

[food4thought]

I haven't participate in a church yet. But I have no car, and I'm to sick to drive. So, I'm a daily walker to anywhere I go. I sometimes take a local transit to take me places.

Right now I'm learning how to harvest like it says in the Bible. Because my name means harvest.

I do like watching "Chicago Fire" and "Chicago Med". I haven't stopped watching that. But I accidently over slept that last episode. lol

Sorry to her about your transportation problems... are there any good churches within walking distance?

First we sow to the Spirit, then we tend the soil/vine, and wait... then we harvest. It takes time and patience.

Yeah, not all entertainment is bad. Let the Spirit guide you on what to watch and when to turn something off.

 

[GraceSeeker]

Right now I'm learning how to harvest like it says in the Bible. Because my name means harvest.

What are you learning about how to harvest? What does the concept of "harvest" or "harvesting" mean to you?

 

[Mediakira]

What are you learning about how to harvest? What does the concept of "harvest" or "harvesting" mean to you?

My real name is Teri! Nice to meet you! It means "Harvest". I'm learning about harvest so I can act upon my name. Like Abraham in the Bible. Abraham means "Father of all Nations." And He did just that. So, that's why I want to learn the way of the Harvest. Even if someone tells me it's no great important to them. I'm still going to seek it out on my own what Harvest means in all degrees. That's what it means to me!

 

[GraceSeeker]

I'm sorry, Teri, I don't understand how your response answers my question about what it is that you have learned.