I need a break from CF as well!

[aflower4God]

I am having bad panic attacks lately and feelings of running away. Here is what the situation is that is making me feel like this:
I feel like some people are out to get me, I think it all started with this one girl who I thought was my friend. I think she back stabbed me. I am just tired of of it all here is why I am saying this cause I am so sweet and dumb. I say dumb cause I open up to people too much on the internet, can't take back what has been done and I think cause of being who I am has destroyed me. I truly with with all my heart do not belong cause of my weirdness/sensitivity, this has caused great paranoia in me. I think that this girl was my friend then turned on me and only was my friend just to get information and get some of her friends to laugh at me. That is how bad my paranoia has gotten
It is so hard to trust the internet it is so hard being me.
I think I have been pushed over the edge this time, [this part was editted cause of the fact it could be a trigger]
I am too weird, with a bit of paranoia and sensitive to be in this world, i just feel that I don't fit in sometimes cause of those reasons.! I am also paranoid about rumors flying around about me cause of this clique. And I feel I am wearing out my welcome with all these threads that i have started lately.
So maybe a well needed break from CF will help me, See I am an avoidant and I worry all the time about what others think of me. I have been like that all my life. Trust me I wish I could get the help that I need, I so wish that.
Please pray that GOD allows me to get approved of my SSD so I can aford to see a doctor and hopefully move to a place that is more local to things like churches and such, but mostly I need help. I really do.
I hate having to leave like this Really I do cause the thing I loved about CF more than anything was to help others, help lift you all, you don't know how GOOD that made me feel. I LOVED putting smiles on people's faces. I love helping you all to see how much you are loved by God and me.
I think my paranoia has gotten the better of me, This entire thing with this "clique" has really got me and got me good.
I will be praying for you all AND AGAIN this is not a goodbye just a break, but I request from you that you all PLEASE PRAY to God that I get better casue I really am at the edge.
I love all my true and dear friends who stuck by my side. PRAY things get better for me and I get stronger to not worry about that clique, I will MISS YOU ALL while I am on my break. YOU ALL HAVE BEEN SUCH A GREAT SUPPORT TO ME!
Sorry for being super sensitive.
Sorry for writing my feelings so deeply.
Love to you all.
Many prayers to you all

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Take a break and come back when you are feeling better.

I'm praying for you always sis!

Love you and will miss you.

 

[Malaika Faye]

Praying for you.

 

[SplendidTree]

I am sorry you struggle with paranoia. That has to be very difficult. Perhaps this is just your paranoia setting in?

Either way sister I hope you have a nice break and will keep you in prayer! Email me if you want, okay?

 

[derek W L]

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[miss-a]

I'm glad to hear the SSD worked out. I trust God will lead you to the right help, and I will be praying for you. PM me anytime.

Love,
a

 

[RuthD]

Best wishes for a good rest. I look forward to when you come back. God bless you.

 

[cflittlestar]

 

[Chococat]

So sorry to hear about these people. I hate it when people make fun of/laugh at other people. If you are really sensitive like I am then it can be really hard to take. I know I have taken breaks from boards before now when I've had problems with people there and it does help. That isn't to say you won't be missed here as you will but sometimes we need a bit of space to get our heads together

 

[whitebeaches]

i am praying for you ((( hugs )))

 

[sarahelizabeth]

ill be praying fo ryou