- Jun 26, 2016
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Please help. I posted awhile back but can't find that thread anymore. I thought I was saved for 11 years. A few years ago I prayed and asked God to show me what was causing my mild anxiety and depression. He showed me that I did what the Rich Young Ruler did. During 2004-2006 God was asking me to give up a relationship and follow Jesus. I did not. I did what the Rich Young Ruler did and held onto my idol, I married the person. You have to follow Jesus to be saved. "He who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is not fit for the Kingdom." Luke 9:62. Ever since I got married I started to decline as a person. I can't accomplish anything, I can't overcome anything, I do not have the power of the Holy Spirit. Jesus has left me. I will spend eternity in hell.
What do I do? I sit and rock back and forth like a mental patient. My husband is angry at me. Figures, I am going to hell and my husband is mad at ME. I'm not the one who forbade the relationship. Most importantly, I am scared to death. I so badly want to fix this but it's too late. Do you have any idea how that feels? I will never be a part of God's Kingdom and I so badly wanted to be. I just didn't know it worked like this, that you could be damned for this. Anyway, I keep deteriorating whereas Christians go from glory to glory. My husband is saved and I have to sit here and watch his life when he is the one who pushed me into the marriage causing my damnation. I told him 1000 times we couldn't be married.
What do I do? How do I handle all this fear, sadness, and anxiety. It is 24/7. I can't even be a mom to my 4 beautiful kids. I have tried a million times to get saved it is just too late. I feel like going to the mental hospital (I have been there 8 times). I feel like I need to do something or go somewhere but I don't know what or where. I need comfort but I'm afraid it's over for me for all of eternity. Had I known what I was giving up by getting married. Every girl dreams of being married. I feel like good took a little girl and just decided to beat the cr*p out of her for fun, because of sick and twisted motives. I am 35 and have never been in love and never will be. Please help me I am panicking as I have been the past 2.5 years since I found out. I need help mostly with the panicking.
What do I do? I sit and rock back and forth like a mental patient. My husband is angry at me. Figures, I am going to hell and my husband is mad at ME. I'm not the one who forbade the relationship. Most importantly, I am scared to death. I so badly want to fix this but it's too late. Do you have any idea how that feels? I will never be a part of God's Kingdom and I so badly wanted to be. I just didn't know it worked like this, that you could be damned for this. Anyway, I keep deteriorating whereas Christians go from glory to glory. My husband is saved and I have to sit here and watch his life when he is the one who pushed me into the marriage causing my damnation. I told him 1000 times we couldn't be married.
What do I do? How do I handle all this fear, sadness, and anxiety. It is 24/7. I can't even be a mom to my 4 beautiful kids. I have tried a million times to get saved it is just too late. I feel like going to the mental hospital (I have been there 8 times). I feel like I need to do something or go somewhere but I don't know what or where. I need comfort but I'm afraid it's over for me for all of eternity. Had I known what I was giving up by getting married. Every girl dreams of being married. I feel like good took a little girl and just decided to beat the cr*p out of her for fun, because of sick and twisted motives. I am 35 and have never been in love and never will be. Please help me I am panicking as I have been the past 2.5 years since I found out. I need help mostly with the panicking.
