I know this is crazy, but...

[TULIPgirl]

Just one of those OCD things but I can't seem to shake it off, so I'm going to try to explain, but it's kind of hard to say what I mean...
A couple months ago I got this idea that when I prayed to God to forgive me for things, that asking him to "forgive" automatically meant that I wouldn't do whatever it was again. So that asking for forgiveness also implied a sort of vow that you wouldn't do whatever it was again, or do it in a certain frame of mind (e.g. doubtingly).
Then I realized that some of the things I prayed about actually weren't sins, and that with OCD I will probably doubt a lot of things and "feel" like I have to pray for forgiveness maybe more than necessary. But now I feel like I have "vowed away" things that really are important to me (some music, my writing, even harmless daydreams!) and I can't even remember all the things I must have prayed about!
Does anyone understand? Vowing has always been a big obsession with me, and now I feel dumb because I think I made these "vows" willingly because I thought we were supposed to; that asking God to "forgive" just implied them.

 

[jc9992]

I understand, but most importantly, God understands.

God knows when you made a pointless vow or repented over something that was already forgiven.God doesnt take things away from us if they do no harm, even if we "vowed them away".God is not like that, when we repent,he forgives and forgets, and yes He wants you to make things right but that doesnt mean give up things that mean something to you but not Him.Just give God your praise.

 

[renewedmind]

Just one of those OCD things but I can't seem to shake it off, so I'm going to try to explain, but it's kind of hard to say what I mean...
A couple months ago I got this idea that when I prayed to God to forgive me for things, that asking him to "forgive" automatically meant that I wouldn't do whatever it was again. So that asking for forgiveness also implied a sort of vow that you wouldn't do whatever it was again, or do it in a certain frame of mind (e.g. doubtingly).
Then I realized that some of the things I prayed about actually weren't sins, and that with OCD I will probably doubt a lot of things and "feel" like I have to pray for forgiveness maybe more than necessary. But now I feel like I have "vowed away" things that really are important to me (some music, my writing, even harmless daydreams!) and I can't even remember all the things I must have prayed about!
Does anyone understand? Vowing has always been a big obsession with me, and now I feel dumb because I think I made these "vows" willingly because I thought we were supposed to; that asking God to "forgive" just implied them.

tulipgirl. God is all knowing he knows you are stuggling w/ ocd He only wants us to believe He Loves us. we don't have to perform for him in any way form or fashion.