lately i've been way depressed.... i can't concentrate on anything, grades, homework, school, the daily monotony of life is really beginning to get to me. i just want to get through stuff... i cut again last night... i just want the world to go away and leave me alone. and at the same time, i want all my friends to be there. but they can't, because they graduated this boarding school last year and are now in college, so i have only one friend left. she's a great friend, but i think i need a bigger support system...
megan and mrs. mallory (she doesn't know i cut, but she knows i'm depressed) have been encouraging me to get counseling, but in order to do that i'd have to talk to mrs. gammon, the vp of our school, and she's kind of intimidating...
i told my first adult recently. (not the first adult to find out, but the first one i told volunatrily, the only adult who knows i still cut) and she was very loving and understanding. she even adopted me!!! (how many adopted mommies is that for me now? 5? 6?) my real mom doesn't pay attention to me whatsoever, so i adopted a couple. it makes me feel loved and at the same time, unloved. because i am the kid who has to make friends with the faculty.
megan and mrs. mallory (she doesn't know i cut, but she knows i'm depressed) have been encouraging me to get counseling, but in order to do that i'd have to talk to mrs. gammon, the vp of our school, and she's kind of intimidating...
i told my first adult recently. (not the first adult to find out, but the first one i told volunatrily, the only adult who knows i still cut) and she was very loving and understanding. she even adopted me!!! (how many adopted mommies is that for me now? 5? 6?) my real mom doesn't pay attention to me whatsoever, so i adopted a couple. it makes me feel loved and at the same time, unloved. because i am the kid who has to make friends with the faculty.
