I just need to vent

[Hermit7]

I've been trying RTT (responsibility transference therapy) where I give all my OCD and anxiety to God.

It's been working quite well for now. But tonight I was buying groceries. I paid them and I was about to go out the sliding door, when anxiety hit me.

The thought of selling out my salvation just to leave with my groceries without any OCD incident, hit me. Eventually after some struggle, I went through those doors.

But part of me believes that the thought was real, while the other part of me believes it was not real. And I still worry.

What's wrong with me?

-Hermit

 

[kaykay9.0]

OCD! Just hang in! Keep walking! Keep battling!!

 

[smith1]

It's the same old thing that bothers us all the time---OCD. It gives us all kinds of false signals and feelings. You are alright dear brother. Your salvation is still with you. I get these kind of feelings myself sometimes. It's like I know that I don't have to do anything wrong in order to accomplish some simple but necessary task but I feel that I WOULD do something bad in order to accomplish it if I needed to.

 

[Hermit7]

Thank you all so much! This really helps me a lot.

God bless

 

[OCD=Owie]

Just another bump in the road. That's what OCD will do to you. Once you start to get better, it will adapt and come at you from another angle. Just stay vigilant! You're on the right track!