I just need some help guys (New here)

[g22coates]

Hey guys I've been reading these forums and I've decided to join. My problem is that I've been depressed for about 3 months now. It's weird though, it's not like it's CONSTANT depression. It seems like it's off and on. I'm gonna be completely honest with ya'll because I've had this bottled up and fed up. I just need help and I want to change my ways so bad so here it goes.

I'm 15 and a guy. Before I got saved I was really non social but I still had friends and stuff. I was consumed in listening to hard music, cussing, I had a VERY LOW self-esteem because I had suffered from acne and just was very insecure of myself.

Last summer at church camp I got saved and was on fire for Christ. I loved it, was the best time of my life so far. I could handle anything thrown at me with my new faith in the lord Jesus. Everything was going great, my acne has cleared up considerably, became a state champion in soccer with my team, becamse not so insecure, and more confident in myself. I was strong in my faith and living the great life most of this year until about 3 months ago.

It almost seems like I've started to fall into the same bad habits that I've escaped from for so long. I seem to be lusting over girls again, m/bing (is that a sin btw?), I've been really down on myself lately because I feel like God has left me out to dry almost. But I know he didn't because of scripture and on certain occasions I would feel his presence and feel great. But I just don't feel as confident and secure in myself anymore. I don't feel intimate with God anymore and I'm hating it.

I've found myself praying alot lately but my prayers don't seem as intimate and real as they used to. Just feels like I'm talking to myself. Lately I've also had dreams with angels and I know that God has been trying to tell me something. I've also been reading my bible every night and I randomly turn pages asking God to show me what I need to see, and I keep comming back to the same verse.

I know here's there but I've just been real frustrated and down with myself lately. I just want to feel close to God again and live life for him once more. I don't know if this is a trial God has been testing me through or what but I love him so much I just want to have a good relationship with him again.
If there's any advice/comfort/verses you guys can give me I'd appreciate it so much you don't even understand.

Please pray guys. Thanks

 

[chrystie171]

Hey guys I've been reading these forums and I've decided to join. My problem is that I've been depressed for about 3 months now. It's weird though, it's not like it's CONSTANT depression. It seems like it's off and on. I'm gonna be completely honest with ya'll because I've had this bottled up and fed up. I just need help and I want to change my ways so bad so here it goes.

I'm 15 and a guy. Before I got saved I was really non social but I still had friends and stuff. I was consumed in listening to hard music, cussing, I had a VERY LOW self-esteem because I had suffered from acne and just was very insecure of myself.

Last summer at church camp I got saved and was on fire for Christ. I loved it, was the best time of my life so far. I could handle anything thrown at me with my new faith in the lord Jesus. Everything was going great, my acne has cleared up considerably, became a state champion in soccer with my team, becamse not so insecure, and more confident in myself. I was strong in my faith and living the great life most of this year until about 3 months ago.

It almost seems like I've started to fall into the same bad habits that I've escaped from for so long. I seem to be lusting over girls again, m/bing (is that a sin btw?), I've been really down on myself lately because I feel like God has left me out to dry almost. But I know he didn't because of scripture and on certain occasions I would feel his presence and feel great. But I just don't feel as confident and secure in myself anymore. I don't feel intimate with God anymore and I'm hating it.

I've found myself praying alot lately but my prayers don't seem as intimate and real as they used to. Just feels like I'm talking to myself. Lately I've also had dreams with angels and I know that God has been trying to tell me something. I've also been reading my bible every night and I randomly turn pages asking God to show me what I need to see, and I keep comming back to the same verse.

I know here's there but I've just been real frustrated and down with myself lately. I just want to feel close to God again and live life for him once more. I don't know if this is a trial God has been testing me through or what but I love him so much I just want to have a good relationship with him again.
If there's any advice/comfort/verses you guys can give me I'd appreciate it so much you don't even understand.

Please pray guys. Thanks

Oh hi there,
I guess that's because you felt guilty because you lust and "M". I know that because am under that situation too. And i'm in this situation for 2 months now.

Before all this happen to me, I am a happy-go-lucky girl, and I have a boyfriend for 3 1/2 years, and yes, both of us have been "sleeping" together ever since. Recently, I attended Church 3 months back, and I realise that "sleeping" together before marriage is a sin. But i still did it, because we've been like that for so many years!

Then suddenly i got this anxious and panic attacks. I am anxious what will happen if i "sleep" with him again. And i panic what if i've done "this and that" and that God dont like it. Not only sleeping with him, but other matters as well. And i was thinking, "i dont want God to be unhappy" And so i got into depression and wanted to commit suicide last month reasoning i want to go heaven. (That's so ridiculous of me actually)

And now i'm into medication, because am too anxious bout everything. And unhappy because of everything around me.

I guess soon you'll be out of it. Its normal for you guys to "M" and also lust. We are humans, we need time to change to be a better person. We cant change 360 degree in such a short span of time. Give yourself some time to change better. Just be patient bout yourself. That's all i gonna say. Cause am also slowly changing to be a better and stronger person.

Cheerss!!!! Remember we are HUMANS.

 

[g22coates]

thx for the replies guys, all your help is really appreciated

god bless

 

[Zita123]

Honey, GOD forgives everything! You said that you went away and learned about HIM. Maybe that's all you need to do again? Maybe your not happy unless your doing something with and/or for HIM? I'm thinking this because you said that you dream of angels. Maybe GOD has a BIGGER plan for you than you can imagine and he really IS testing you! Don't worry, Go to church, you'll feel the emotions again and then maybe you will be able to think more openly! GOD BLESS YOU ALWAYS and NEVER give up!!
Zita123