I have to guts to ask myself if I deserve this

[Lady Bug]

I know I might pizz off a few by this post but I'm going through some sheet again and two people in my life who I normally talk to about this, are sort of out of commission.

It's basically a "I'm alone the whole day looking at the walls and you went out to CHURCH" (church is only one hour of that day) and is cursing at me calling me a B and miserable person for leaving him alone and yet at the same time (though not in the same convo) he barks that I'm all alone in this world and doesn't know what to do about it. I also got groceries for him but he doesn't appreciate it, he's more biching about the church stuff instead saying "G D F church."

I feel like I'm losing my mind, or if I'm going crazy, wondering if I'm supposed to be treated like this. In case this sounds like the dumbest question of all time, I think when you're being "abused" you have to ask yourself if you're doing something to cause it.

 

[Richard T]

I think the scripture about we battle not against flesh and blood applies here. The issue is not with you but they seem hostile to God and you are the one they take it out on. It is abuse to me, and I really do not think that you are causing it. It does seem bad enough that it could be demonic. Do they ever settle down where you can talk about stuff like this or maybe even have some counseling? May God give you the grace and wisdom to know what to do. God bless! (for disclosure, I am not Catholic, and was unsure if i could post in here or not)

 

[AlexB23]

I know I might pizz off a few by this post but I'm going through some sheet again and two people in my life who I normally talk to about this, are sort of out of commission.

It's basically a "I'm alone the whole day looking at the walls and you went out to CHURCH" (church is only one hour of that day) and is cursing at me calling me a B and miserable person for leaving him alone and yet at the same time (though not in the same convo) he barks that I'm all alone in this world and doesn't know what to do about it. I also got groceries for him but he doesn't appreciate it, he's more biching about the church stuff instead saying "G D F church."

I feel like I'm losing my mind, or if I'm going crazy, wondering if I'm supposed to be treated like this. In case this sounds like the dumbest question of all time, I think when you're being "abused" you have to ask yourself if you're doing something to cause it.

You need to run from your abusive father. Do not help your dad get groceries. Have the store deliver the groceries to him.

 

[chevyontheriver]

I know I might pizz off a few by this post but I'm going through some sheet again and two people in my life who I normally talk to about this, are sort of out of commission.

It's basically a "I'm alone the whole day looking at the walls and you went out to CHURCH" (church is only one hour of that day) and is cursing at me calling me a B and miserable person for leaving him alone and yet at the same time (though not in the same convo) he barks that I'm all alone in this world and doesn't know what to do about it. I also got groceries for him but he doesn't appreciate it, he's more biching about the church stuff instead saying "G D F church."

I feel like I'm losing my mind, or if I'm going crazy, wondering if I'm supposed to be treated like this. In case this sounds like the dumbest question of all time, I think when you're being "abused" you have to ask yourself if you're doing something to cause it.

Have you ever told him he is really mean and he richly deserves to be completely alone? I bet he blows up at that.

Have you ever told him you go to church to pray for him? I bet he would really blow up at that for an hour or so.

 

[Lady Bug]

Thank you for replying. I hope I don't keep making these threads but gosh darn it I need an outlet. I might quote individual people later.

 

[mourningdove~]

I know I might pizz off a few by this post but I'm going through some sheet again and two people in my life who I normally talk to about this, are sort of out of commission.

It's basically a "I'm alone the whole day looking at the walls and you went out to CHURCH" (church is only one hour of that day) and is cursing at me calling me a B and miserable person for leaving him alone and yet at the same time (though not in the same convo) he barks that I'm all alone in this world and doesn't know what to do about it. I also got groceries for him but he doesn't appreciate it, he's more biching about the church stuff instead saying "G D F church."

I feel like I'm losing my mind, or if I'm going crazy, wondering if I'm supposed to be treated like this. In case this sounds like the dumbest question of all time, I think when you're being "abused" you have to ask yourself if you're doing something to cause it.

I believe you are accurate in suggesting what you are experiencing as "abuse".
Honestly, I have seen it as abuse for as long as you've been writing about it.
It may not be physical abuse, but it is mental and emotional abuse.

Thing is, I know that one cannot always just 'get out' of an abusive situation. For persons who are living very freely, and who have never been in an abusive relationship, they may not understand why a person in an abusive situation doesn't just run out the door and never look back. They actually probably can't understand it. But there are some of us here that can.

Some of us understand, too, that one cannot always just 'talk it out' and 'reason' with an abusive person. There are a number of reasons why it just becomes impossible to do so. And that can be terribly frustrating.

Faith in God is what will get you thru this. But a person living in an abusive situation also needs caring (human) persons to talk to, so that they don't lose their mind. One needs that sort of 'reality check', and it seems you know you can get that here. So, as long as you are in this situation, I hope you won't hesitate to post here when you need some support. Seems someone caring is nearly almost around.

 

[AlexB23]

Thank you for replying. I hope I don't keep making these threads but gosh darn it I need an outlet. I might quote individual people later.

You are welcome. Honestly, it is good that you have an outlet here. I means that you are comfortable speaking to us on the forum.