I have serious problems!

[johnandtraci]

I am using voice activation because I only have a phone So. you're going to see some mistakes. Please overlook them. I was diagnosed with bipolar 32 years ago. I started drinking about 32 years ago. I was always involved in the drug culture and the drug scene. I was saved in the year 2000 and immediately healed of alcohol. But after being baptized in the Holy Spirit I fell into a great depression. I ended up on opiates. Many years of Great Depression an opiate abuse followEd. I stayed away from any relationships. I met a man 2 years ago who was an alcoholic my intentions were good. I want to help him get clean and surrender to Christ. But I end up getting involved in heroin! If anybody should lose their salvation that should be me. All the Christian rehab centers will not allow me to take my psych meds. My fiance also has psychiatric disorder. He ended up in jail on a number of minor charges and this give me time to think of what the heck is going on in our lives. I've seen God touch him. I've seen him fill with the Holy Spirit. But we've been sinning together but have repented. I am so lonely broken hearted. I have much pain underneath my addiction. I told him he needs to go to six months of rehab before he can come back. He has no place to live and no income. Being that he is an infant in Jesus he doesn't understand the Bible. He wrote me saying we can work this out go to church quit using but I know how strong that addiction is in him

 

[johnandtraci]

Cont. I fear for our eternal destination. How can I get clean? He Has given me a ring and wants to marry me. If he comes back and I do not marry him I feel we are living in sin. Do you think there's any hope that two addicts married can make it. Obviously we will seek help for addiction. If we break up he has nowhere to go and I will end up in a group home whichh is a dead end. I was even thinking of going to a deliverance ministry thinking addiction maybe demonic. We both have great musical talent to serve the Lord. I am failing a great depression right now. Although I haven't used I want to. As you can see this is very complex. Any advice appreciated. I've tried to pray this addiction out. I know God is a ble. But are we?

 

[Chaplain David]

Cont. I fear for our eternal destination. How can I get clean? He Has given me a ring and wants to marry me. If he comes back and I do not marry him I feel we are living in sin. Do you think there's any hope that two addicts married can make it. Obviously we will seek help for addiction. If we break up he has nowhere to go and I will end up in a group home whichh is a dead end. I was even thinking of going to a deliverance ministry thinking addiction maybe demonic. We both have great musical talent to serve the Lord. I am failing a great depression right now. Although I haven't used I want to. As you can see this is very complex. Any advice appreciated. I've tried to pray this addiction out. I know God is a ble. But are we?

Hello,

Two addicts can definitely make it if they get married but the best thing to do is get clean and sober first. I got sober in AA and have attended NA in the past as well. This was combined with good counseling.

You have a relationship with Christ and God will help you but you both must also help yourselves. Your relationship has a much higher chance of making it if you both are off drugs and in a program of some kind to help you both stay clean and sober.

I have high hopes for you two but you can't get him off drugs. Only God and his own program of sobriety can do that. Does this make sense?

Faithfully,

 

[johnandtraci]

Im crying. The pastors wife said to leave him.my family says to leave him. Yet i do feel he will od and ill b in a group home. Which i can assure u is a place that is nuthin more than a holding cell until you die! Seriously! The mentals of the world get thrown away. My fiancee isnt the greatest catch but i love him dearly. The pastor said to stay w him but we must marry. I cannot live in temptation. Its sin. The thing is he can say " im getin clean" but this mayb used as a ploy to keep me. His alcohol addiction is strong! Ty chaplin

 

[johnandtraci]

I also wanted to add on a number of occasions we have tried to quit. But that was without help. We have an AA club within walking distance. We have 300 churches are city. And we have a desperately underfunded mental health clinic. It seems the days I'm strong he's weak. And the days he strong I am weak. We have terrible insurance. I just called about suboxin treatment. And just as I guessed nothing is covered. Also he thinks I saved him. I keep telling him Jesus saved u not me, JESUS! The day I met him he told me he was going to kill himself. He loves me very much. He can't fake love and neither can I

 

[johnandtraci]

Would it not b foolish to jump into a marriage this complicated? I'm sorry have to post so many different posts. This is due to my phone.

 

[Chaplain David]

I think you're doing great responding from your phone. I'm going to send you a chaplain pm as soon as I have a break. God bless you.

 

[Zvelsxip]

Your story is troubling in that I see a gushing flow of water consonantly pounding you and your finace. This gushing water prevents you two from being able to stand up and recover, lest you be saved. I will tell you that you are well intended in wanting to save yourselves but the power against you is stronger. That which surrounds you grows stronger at each wave, because evil senses your yearning desire to come stright and be a follwer of Jesus and God. I will tell you the evil has no intention of releasing his grip.

I will agree to pray UP a sign and a power from God to come to you both. Specifically, a person/disciple of the Lord is needed in your case. This person carries with HIM, the power to bring you peace and force this evil away from you. This person, is not known to you, seeks no compensation, can be drawn to you, but the force to be drawn has to come from you, a desire to want to feel the Truth of God and the Love of Jesus. You must focus on "seeing" this come to you, drawn to you. As this force of God is beckoned to, it causes the force of dross and heaviness and darkness to be displaced by Warmth, Love, and peace. The evil force has no warmth and no love just fear. The closer that this person gets (1 mile, 100 feet, 10 feet, 2 feet) forces All good onto you. Light will replace Darkness, and the hunger for drugs is replaced with Hunger for Scripture. God Bless. Look to the East, and Pray from Your Heart, Begin Now. Look not to How long to Pray, as you can not measure how much Jesus prays for you.

 

[RuthD]

Hi. I read about your problems. Just wondering how you and him are doing now.

 

[johnandtraci]

Actually thingz are pretty good! Itz amazing what ' fear of God' can do. And when one gets involved in such troubling sin, you just know, if wise enough, that you must flee. So we are in transition and its a positive one. Ty for your interest. Lotsa prayer too, just begging and pleading.,God is good!

 

[Chaplain David]

Actually thingz are pretty good! Itz amazing what ' fear of God' can do. And when one gets involved in such troubling sin, you just know, if wise enough, that you must flee. So we are in transition and its a positive one. Ty for your interest. Lotsa prayer too, just begging and pleading.,God is good!

I'm glad things are going better. God bless you both.

Faithfully,
CH Sacerdote

 

[Logan Musil]

Heard great things about the settingcaptivesfree website ministry.
Blessings,
Logan