I have nothing to live for but God...

[Follower Untainted]

I suffer from crippling depression, anxiety and stress, yet in a way I feel I have very less of fear and worry because I trust in God so much. By anxiety, I mean I have this nasty physical feeling, it's really hard to explain. I often feel like I'm having a heart attack, but whenever I tell the Lord that I trust in Him, the pain goes away literally immediately.

But... I'm just so depressed. No one's really there for me except for my fiance, but his help isn't much even though I greatly appreciate it. Basically everyone ignores my existence, and those who don't just barely even care.

I feel miserable. I have literally nothing to live for, because I'm too stressed and in too much physical pain to work, regardless of how much I want to work. I cry everyday because I want a job so terribly. I do see a psychiatrist, but even he says it's best for my mental and physical health if I be on disability.

I just... may someone message me for someone to talk to about God? Is there a pastor on here, because I can't get in touch with a pastor in my small town, because of different reasons. I just need someone to talk to me about how I can fully give my life to God and just everything.

I'm tired of wanting to die. I always cry to Him about wanting to go home already. And I know that's selfish and wrong, but I just need some guidance from a true follower of Him.

 

[mukk_in]

You have Jesus to live for. "For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain." I'll be praying for you and your fiance. God bless .

 

[Follower Untainted]

You have Jesus to live for. "For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain." I'll be praying for you and your fiance. God bless .

Thank you. I know I have Christ to live for. I would love some advice on how to live more for Him.

 

[Mountainmanbob]

You have a fiance and that is a special thing that not everyone has.

The closest one that I have is my wife.

M-Bob

 

[mukk_in]

Most of us ignore this, but sometimes fatigue can also wear us down and make us gloomy. "They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up wings as eagles. They shall run and not grow weary. They shall walk and not faint." (Isaiah 40:31-32).

 

[mukk_in]

You have Jesus to live for. "For me to live is Christ, and to die is gain." I'll be praying for you and your fiance. God bless .

To live for Jesus is to put Him, His needs, and His kingdom first. "If anyone wants to follow Me, they should pick up their cross daily and follow Me." Life becomes saturated, boring and depressing after a while because there's no vision or purpose ("where there's no vision, people cast off restraint"). Find out what the Lord wants you to do for Him. It could be preaching, evangelism, teaching, missionary work, etc. If you spend enough time in prayer and fellowship with the Holy Spirit you'll discern your spiritual gifts (1 Corinthians 12:8-10).

Meanwhile, just keep talking to unbelievers about Jesus, or volunteer at the homeless shelter, etc. That's always a good way to stay busy in a godly way. Service, vision, and purpose will come with spiritual maturity. Joining a women's bible study group at your church or even here, will both challenge and nourish you. It'd be more fulfilling if your fiance joined you. Hope that helps. God bless .

 

[longwait]

I suffer from crippling depression, anxiety and stress, yet in a way I feel I have very less of fear and worry because I trust in God so much. By anxiety, I mean I have this nasty physical feeling, it's really hard to explain. I often feel like I'm having a heart attack, but whenever I tell the Lord that I trust in Him, the pain goes away literally immediately.

But... I'm just so depressed. No one's really there for me except for my fiance, but his help isn't much even though I greatly appreciate it. Basically everyone ignores my existence, and those who don't just barely even care.

I feel miserable. I have literally nothing to live for, because I'm too stressed and in too much physical pain to work, regardless of how much I want to work. I cry everyday because I want a job so terribly. I do see a psychiatrist, but even he says it's best for my mental and physical health if I be on disability.

I just... may someone message me for someone to talk to about God? Is there a pastor on here, because I can't get in touch with a pastor in my small town, because of different reasons. I just need someone to talk to me about how I can fully give my life to God and just everything.

I'm tired of wanting to die. I always cry to Him about wanting to go home already. And I know that's selfish and wrong, but I just need some guidance from a true follower of Him.

I'ill post a video for you. She tells how to declare and decree what you need for your life. Keep declaring the Word of God.

 

[Follower Untainted]

To live for Jesus is to put Him, His needs, and His kingdom first. "If anyone wants to follow Me, they should pick up their cross daily and follow Me." Life becomes saturated, boring and depressing after a while because there's no vision or purpose ("where there's no vision, people cast off restraint"). Find out what the Lord wants you to do for Him. It could be preaching, evangelism, teaching, missionary work, etc. If you spend enough time in prayer and fellowship with the Holy Spirit you'll discern your spiritual gifts (1 Corinthians 12:8-10).

Meanwhile, just keep talking to unbelievers about Jesus, or volunteer at the homeless shelter, etc. That's always a good way to stay busy in a godly way. Service, vision, and purpose will come with spiritual maturity. Joining a women's bible study group at your church or even here, will both challenge and nourish you. It'd be more fulfilling if your fiance joined you. Hope that helps. God bless .

Thank you. I prayed with deep passion, asking Him what He wants me to do. And I immediately "felt" the word "missionary." And I wasn't even thinking that at all. My mind was blank from options when I asked my Father.

How do I fulfill His want of me?

 

[mukk_in]

Thank you. I prayed with deep passion, asking Him what He wants me to do. And I immediately "felt" the word "missionary." And I wasn't even thinking that at all. My mind was blank from options when I asked my Father.

How do I fulfill His want of me?

There should be missionary training programs at your church. If there aren't any, there should be some missions oriented forums here with seasoned/veteran missionaries. They should be able to help. Here's the link for the missions and evangelism forum here: https://www.christianforums.com/forums/missions-evangelism-witnessing.78/.

To be a missionary, one may need to know the local language and customs, and need funding as well. I do some outreach to middle class Indian people and try to train some of my former students to become powerful community leaders. I fund them and support them as well. It's easy for me because I speak decent English and several Indian languages and was raised here, while educated in America.

God bless .

 

[Dave-W]

There is a chaplain folder where you can go and have a private chat with a trained man of God. Look for it on the main Forums page.

 

[JosephZ]

Thank you. I prayed with deep passion, asking Him what He wants me to do. And I immediately "felt" the word "missionary." And I wasn't even thinking that at all. My mind was blank from options when I asked my Father.

How do I fulfill His want of me?

You mentioned in your OP that you are in too much physical pain to work, not trying to get too personal, but would this pain hinder you from being in the mission field?

While being a missionary is one option to serve God, there may also be some local opportunities as well. Sometimes we can find a mission field in our own communities. I will keep you in my prayers.

 

[Follower Untainted]

You mentioned in your OP that you are in too much physical pain to work, not trying to get too personal, but would this pain hinder you from being in the mission field?

While being a missionary is one option to serve God, there may also be some local opportunities as well. Sometimes we can find a mission field in our own communities. I will keep you in my prayers.

True, I'm kind of slow in my mind, so I didn't even think about that. I suffer from chronic pain terribly (along with so much anxiety and stress that it's hard to accomplish anything like having a job.), but I asked a chaplain about this, and he suggested being an online missionary so I won't be on my feet too much. I mean, I can be on my feet (walking) for like ten minutes at a time, but then my chronic pain gets so bad that I feel like cutting my own legs off.

 

[sea5763]

I struggled with that sentiment years ago. I thought maybe i could find purpose through being on Christian websites and trying to answer questions that other people on the fence about Christianity. After years of that and reading the whole Bible I realized that I sucked at that terribly and wasn’t helping anyone and didn’t know what I was talking about. I started realizing that I could have spent that time as a prayer warrior, but at that point I was starting to struggle past my problems and start studying again. If I were to go back in time and have more discipline I would have made my purpose to be praying on behalf of others like 24/7. There is a prayer wall on this website and you could spend all your time looking for specific people and things to pray for. I would still recommend reading through the Bible. I think sometimes finding scripture that is relevant to what people are thinking about can be helpful and usually more convincing than personal arguments. After all faith comes from hearing the word of God so telling people relevant scriptures can definitely help

 

[Follower Untainted]

I struggled with that sentiment years ago. I thought maybe i could find purpose through being on Christian websites and trying to answer questions that other people on the fence about Christianity. After years of that and reading the whole Bible I realized that I sucked at that terribly and wasn’t helping anyone and didn’t know what I was talking about. I started realizing that I could have spent that time as a prayer warrior, but at that point I was starting to struggle past my problems and start studying again. If I were to go back in time and have more discipline I would have made my purpose to be praying on behalf of others like 24/7. There is a prayer wall on this website and you could spend all your time looking for specific people and things to pray for. I would still recommend reading through the Bible. I think sometimes finding scripture that is relevant to what people are thinking about can be helpful and usually more convincing than personal arguments. After all faith comes from hearing the word of God so telling people relevant scriptures can definitely help

This helped me SOOOOOOOOOO much. You have NO idea!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you! :'D

 

[sea5763]

This helped me SOOOOOOOOOO much. You have NO idea!!! Thank you, thank you, thank you! :'D

You’re welcome I’m glad I could help