I have Lost myself

[LearningTruth16]

I'm not one to usually write in these forums. I'm a Christian and I usually read the stories of others to know where people stand and the amazing things that the Lord has done in peoples lives. At this moment though I feel I have disgraced myself. I'm a freshman in college and since I have came here all has seemed to go downhill. I have not drank, I don't smoke, I have not been to one party since I've been here. But I have been without the Lord.

When people make remarks on hooking up w/ girls or other such things I totally act like it's awesome. I don't show the Lord to others what so ever. I have a girlfriend who I'm in love w/ but just recently I slept with another girl in an act of lust. My battle w/ touching yourself is no more I let it run over me, and I do it regularly without concern or care. I have not been to church in weeks because I play Baseball here, and we have practice on Sundays. And the occasional Sunday we do have off I use it for sleep. I've been recklessly spending money that my parents have been giving me. This has hurt them somewhat financially, as they had a cruise planned for the summer that they now can't afford. I feel absolutely terrible at all times of the day. To my girlfriend that I love... Who I don't deserve. To the stress that seems to surround me day in and day out. I can't seem to open my bible and really link into the Lord. I know that he is not satisfied w/ me, and sometimes I lay in bed wondering why I'm worthy to be his servant.

I'm lost without the Lord, I ask for prayers. I know what the problem is but since I've lost a true connection with the Lord I've also gained many other problems that need dealing with. Please Pray for me, I beg you to pray for me.

 

[njcl]

WOW thats a lot of guilt for 1 persons shoulders to carry

first your affair,yes your right to condemn yourself,its unfaithful but not a mortal sin,we all have weaknesses and
sometimes we give in to them,if you were drunk at the time that takes incredible resolve to resist a woman,ive been there so know,best you dont tell your g/f as it will destroy her and any trust you have with each other

the squandering your parents money,not good but money isnt everything,LOVE is,your posting your regrets about it here so thats an act of contrition

as for being far from god,your in college?? and sleep in on a sunday,i sleep in also and dont attend a church either,theres other ways to serve THE CHRIST....

im wacked with tiredness so need to sleep,will put my prayer tomorrow

 

[JacobsDream]

Lord we lift up LearningTruth16 up to you tonight because you care for him.
The road back begins here: beleiving that you are loved and forgiven, no matter how much you've blown it.

Lord give him the grace to know that every point is a point of turnaround and that you can fix this. Give him the drive to reach out to you as you are already reaching out to him, to seek you in the LITTLE things, like praying in the morning and evening, reading a couple of verses everyday, TAKING A STAND when the rest of the world chooses to live in the flesh.
Yes, they will ridicule him, but you are still for him and no one can be against him.
Let him know that he is forgiven and loved and that all of this you can fix in Jesus name.

 

[LearningTruth16]

I appreciate the words of wisdom, and the prayer as well. I've been cramming for a test tomorrow so I haven't been able to spend some time w/ the Lord but after writing out what had been caged into me so much in the last couple weeks I know I just need to open the bible... watch JESUS the movie , something to get me motivated in the Lord and hopefully he'll slowly slip back into my life and help carry me because I know I need him

 

[JacobsDream]

The bible says that faith as small as a mustard seed is all God needs to work with.
He will reward your faith, however little as you continue to strive to seek him little by little.
I used to be in the habit of waking up and rushing off to class and at the end of the day, I'll look back and my day would just be rocky ride. I've learnt to spend even 5 mins with God as soon as I crawl out of bed and it helps me remember that he's there the whole time.

 

[Linus]

Dear Father in Heaven, our beloved brother needs You and I ask You in the name of our loving and caring Saviour that You guide him closer to You. Help him to focus more on You and what You want of him. Help him to resist the temptations of this world. Thank You Lord!

 

[covenantwmn]

Father, I pray that my brother heeds the feelings he is having and makes every effort to get close to You. I ask that You show him anew how much You love him and that You see him as perfect through the blood of Christ. I pray that You will give him a hunger that cannot be satisfied for Your Word, Your people and prayer. We know we can come to You Father, no matter what we've done, and find forgiveness, and You waiting, arms open wide. Thank You for that forgiveness, again, again, and again, in Jesus' name, amen.
in Him, Leslie

 

[Battle Maiden]

I'm not one to usually write in these forums. I'm a Christian and I usually read the stories of others to know where people stand and the amazing things that the Lord has done in peoples lives. At this moment though I feel I have disgraced myself. I'm a freshman in college and since I have came here all has seemed to go downhill. I have not drank, I don't smoke, I have not been to one party since I've been here. But I have been without the Lord.

When people make remarks on hooking up w/ girls or other such things I totally act like it's awesome. I don't show the Lord to others what so ever. I have a girlfriend who I'm in love w/ but just recently I slept with another girl in an act of lust. My battle w/ touching yourself is no more I let it run over me, and I do it regularly without concern or care. I have not been to church in weeks because I play Baseball here, and we have practice on Sundays. And the occasional Sunday we do have off I use it for sleep. I've been recklessly spending money that my parents have been giving me. This has hurt them somewhat financially, as they had a cruise planned for the summer that they now can't afford. I feel absolutely terrible at all times of the day. To my girlfriend that I love... Who I don't deserve. To the stress that seems to surround me day in and day out. I can't seem to open my bible and really link into the Lord. I know that he is not satisfied w/ me, and sometimes I lay in bed wondering why I'm worthy to be his servant.

I'm lost without the Lord, I ask for prayers. I know what the problem is but since I've lost a true connection with the Lord I've also gained many other problems that need dealing with. Please Pray for me, I beg you to pray for me.

Hi LearningTruth16

I am sorry that you are going thrught such a bad time, you already know what you need to do . Remember the parable of the prodigal son, the son went back home after spending all his inhertance on sinful living. Well the father welcomed him back with open arms, if you repent and turn away from what you have been doing the Lord is waiting for you. I will pray that all the shame and guilt that you feel you will be able to overcome with the Lords help, the Lord loves you and we all have done things that we have been ashamed of. So you are not on your own.

Battle Maiden

 

[Thankful4HIM]

Lord,
Be with Learningtruth16 as he is answering your call. College is a hard place, but easy to slip into sin. I ask that you hold his hand and let him know that you're there for him, he's not alone. Amen.

 

[liveandlove]

hello learningTruth16,

I will also be praying for you. I know you feel terrible and I would also feel terrible if i were in your shoes. However, our Lord's love and mercy is waiting for you. Have a humble spirit, go to him and pour your heart out and ask for forgiveness. That is why He told us the story of the prodigal son because our Lord knows man's weakness.

You have not done anything that He cannot forgive. The greater sin is if we do not go back to our Lord and receive his mercy.

He loves you and has never stopped loving you.

Grace and peace,
a.

 

[angelkiss]

Heavenly Father, we ask that you be with our dear brother and send comfort into his life. We ask that you guide him daily and give him the strength he needs to do your will. We ask that you help him to get back on track and be a good light to others. We ask that you always give him the desire to do what you would have him to. We ask that you bless and keep him always. We ask all things in Jesus' name, Amen.

 

[Im-revived]

I think if those who are in late teens and those of us older have the same problems. If you were in a massive room of Christians and the pastor/minister or whoever stood at the front and asked us all. Who hasn't fallen short of Gods word at any point in our Christian life, if everyone was honest no-one could raise there hand and say they have never slipt away, or walked the wrong road at some point. What i'm trying to say love is, don't be too hard on yourself. It takes courage to and trust to tell others about Jesus, it takes courage to admit you've gone down the wrong path for a while and it takes courage and faith to tell satan to get lost.
Some of us may not be very good about telling others about Jesus, some have the gift to do it. At the moment mate you are in a battle of temptations, your surrounded by people who don't know the Lord, and whats happening in every issue you've mentioned satans trying to get a foothold by using the non Christians etc. What you need to do is bind satan up and ask for strength to overcome all these.

Lord I pray for 'Learning the truth' as that is exactly what hes doing, learning. I pray against the works of satan trying to get a grip on his life through others in Jesus Name. I ask you will give him courage and strength to get back on the road with you, may he ask you for forgiveness for anything he does feel really bad about and teach him to stand firm in your Love and Faith. Amen

Im-revived

I'm not one to usually write in these forums. I'm a Christian and I usually read the stories of others to know where people stand and the amazing things that the Lord has done in peoples lives. At this moment though I feel I have disgraced myself. I'm a freshman in college and since I have came here all has seemed to go downhill. I have not drank, I don't smoke, I have not been to one party since I've been here. But I have been without the Lord.

When people make remarks on hooking up w/ girls or other such things I totally act like it's awesome. I don't show the Lord to others what so ever. I have a girlfriend who I'm in love w/ but just recently I slept with another girl in an act of lust. My battle w/ touching yourself is no more I let it run over me, and I do it regularly without concern or care. I have not been to church in weeks because I play Baseball here, and we have practice on Sundays. And the occasional Sunday we do have off I use it for sleep. I've been recklessly spending money that my parents have been giving me. This has hurt them somewhat financially, as they had a cruise planned for the summer that they now can't afford. I feel absolutely terrible at all times of the day. To my girlfriend that I love... Who I don't deserve. To the stress that seems to surround me day in and day out. I can't seem to open my bible and really link into the Lord. I know that he is not satisfied w/ me, and sometimes I lay in bed wondering why I'm worthy to be his servant.

I'm lost without the Lord, I ask for prayers. I know what the problem is but since I've lost a true connection with the Lord I've also gained many other problems that need dealing with. Please Pray for me, I beg you to pray for me.