This may be a reallllly ridiculous post but I don't really have anyone to go to for advice on the subject. I'd like some solid Christian opinions on what I should do.
I'm 24. I've never had a relationship with a guy or even been close to having one. I'm also real naive to be honest. I was homeschooled my whole life and most of the crushes I had growing up were cartoon characters. I only started noticing real guys when I was 17 years old. Yeah I know that's weird.
So there's the background information. Now here's my problem.
I don't know if it's my OCD or a natural response to infatuation, but I don't like the way being attracted to someone makes me feel. I feel out of control and like a hyped up version of myself. I get more giddy and easily excited. I'm more pleasant to be around. That is not normal behavior for me, so I do not enjoy it. I feel all fake-like.
I don't like thinking about someone 24/7. I had a bad experience with that when I was 18 over a crush on a guy who worked at a grocery store. It was fun, yeah, but now that I'm older I like being in "control" of my feelings and thoughts. Especially since I have OCD and anxiety--I need all the control I can get. Romantic love is like a drug and I don't like the way it makes me feel. Too many hormones.
Another problem I'm having currently is there is a guy on one of my Facebook groups who I really want to get to know. He lives in Europe though. He struggles a lot with anxiety like me and seems really well-rounded. I never really responded to his comments on my posts in the past but he seems like a really sweet person..He likes art and photography (I dabble in photography too sometimes) and is really nice to the other members of the group. He's also a Christian and really seems to love God. I admire that a lot, and it kind of makes me upset because I'm getting feelings for someone I don't know, and this time it's someone who is actually a Christian. But it's not in real life. I want to get to know him so bad, but I'm hesitant. I don't know if I should or not. I know this is weird and I realize that. I kind of regret adding him now. He accepted my friend request. He's been posting a lot in the group lately and he's having a really tough time with panic attacks. I want to give my advice but I'm kind worried I'm being partial.
I don't know what to do. I wish I would have never explored these feelings because now they're out of control. This doesn't feel godly. I feel like I'm sinning. How do Christians handle these kind of issues? What should I do with this?
I'm 24. I've never had a relationship with a guy or even been close to having one. I'm also real naive to be honest. I was homeschooled my whole life and most of the crushes I had growing up were cartoon characters. I only started noticing real guys when I was 17 years old. Yeah I know that's weird.
So there's the background information. Now here's my problem.
I don't know if it's my OCD or a natural response to infatuation, but I don't like the way being attracted to someone makes me feel. I feel out of control and like a hyped up version of myself. I get more giddy and easily excited. I'm more pleasant to be around. That is not normal behavior for me, so I do not enjoy it. I feel all fake-like.
I don't like thinking about someone 24/7. I had a bad experience with that when I was 18 over a crush on a guy who worked at a grocery store. It was fun, yeah, but now that I'm older I like being in "control" of my feelings and thoughts. Especially since I have OCD and anxiety--I need all the control I can get. Romantic love is like a drug and I don't like the way it makes me feel. Too many hormones.
Another problem I'm having currently is there is a guy on one of my Facebook groups who I really want to get to know. He lives in Europe though. He struggles a lot with anxiety like me and seems really well-rounded. I never really responded to his comments on my posts in the past but he seems like a really sweet person..He likes art and photography (I dabble in photography too sometimes) and is really nice to the other members of the group. He's also a Christian and really seems to love God. I admire that a lot, and it kind of makes me upset because I'm getting feelings for someone I don't know, and this time it's someone who is actually a Christian. But it's not in real life. I want to get to know him so bad, but I'm hesitant. I don't know if I should or not. I know this is weird and I realize that. I kind of regret adding him now. He accepted my friend request. He's been posting a lot in the group lately and he's having a really tough time with panic attacks. I want to give my advice but I'm kind worried I'm being partial.
I don't know what to do. I wish I would have never explored these feelings because now they're out of control. This doesn't feel godly. I feel like I'm sinning. How do Christians handle these kind of issues? What should I do with this?
