i have a question

[Amber Kitsune]

I do apologize for the oddness of this question. When I was nine I was raped. I wont go into details as they are quite graphic. I tried to hide the memories with alcohol and pot. I just recently found my faith in christ. Now I need to know. Am I still a virgin in gods eyes? I just feel so dirty. :x im getting past it it slowly...

 

[Coralie]

You're still a virgin darling. Virginity is a matter of will and intention; you didn't give something willingly, you had it taken from you. That makes your rapist a rapist, and you a survivor, NOT something dirty. It's your rapist who's dirty.

YOU are CLEAN. You are not to blame and it wasn't your will. Even if it felt good (sometimes it does, not sure if that was the case with you), it STILL was not your will. A 9-year-old doesn't yet have the faculties to willingly submit to sexual activity, that's why we have statutory rape laws. God sees the heart and knows the true intentions of all His human children.

If you haven't yet, get into therapy and start your journey to recovery -- sooner or later, you'll realise the truth and it will set you free. Much love to you.

 

[Amber Kitsune]

Thanks I feel a bit better in those regards. However im still in mental hell.. What if he went on to rape more... I don't remember his face as I was drugged up and didn't see him, all I remember is blacking out and feeling pain...I hate this world I truly do... between all my mental stress and my good 'christian' family telling me ill be going to hell because of who I love. I quit. No longer will I hold hope for a better world when people justify hate and misery in the name of god.

Ill probably not be returning as im not allowed to promote myself as im once again called a sinner for being in love.

Just remember something so called holy people. Will you disown your child for being gay/transgender?
Can you choose who you love? When a child comes out only to be told they will be exorsized of demons.. to be told that they are an abomination and you find them hanging from a rope in their room. Can you call yourself a good christian and good parent?

No this isn't directed at any person in particular. Just people need to think before they spout hate in the name of god when in reality they know less about their god than the person they condemn.

Im out. Goodbye
im in therapy for it now.
godbless you all. Im serious. Jesus loves everyone. His people...not so much

 

[Johnnz]

Some Christians get things wrong at times. But Jesus doesn't. But, it's hard trying to put the two together sometimes.

Bless you
John
NZ

 

[DevinCamary]

You're still a virgin darling. Virginity is a matter of will and intention; you didn't give something willingly, you had it taken from you. That makes your rapist a rapist, and you a survivor, NOT something dirty. It's your rapist who's dirty.

YOU are CLEAN. You are not to blame and it wasn't your will. Even if it felt good (sometimes it does, not sure if that was the case with you), it STILL was not your will. A 9-year-old doesn't yet have the faculties to willingly submit to sexual activity, that's why we have statutory rape laws. God sees the heart and knows the true intentions of all His human children.

If you haven't yet, get into therapy and start your journey to recovery -- sooner or later, you'll realise the truth and it will set you free. Much love to you.

Mind if I know what brought you to that conclusion? What verses did you use?