For me, I see spiritual growth much like physical growth. I would like to be physically strong, but when I do not go to the gym, I stagnate. My stagnation after a time becomes regression. What I had I lost. What I could have, I never gained. There are many days when I can say I was really too busy to make it to the gym. But at the end of the day there is no growth, and no excuse can take away that penalty. However, when I just *do* it, and find creative ways of fitting working out in my schedule, I see progress, and gain. I find myself becoming more athletic. This, then, spurs me on, and becomes in itself motivation.
I believe spiritual growth, in large part reading the bible, is like this. When I am not reading the bible, I forget the promise I have received. When I forget this promise, I forget the spiritual battle inside of me. When I forget this, I not only stagnate, but also regress. However, when I just *do* it, and find creative ways of fitting bible reading into my schedule, I am spurred on. I see new facets of the gospel that I did not know before. This keeps me focused, and brings to my life perspective.
I guess the point I am making is to just *do* it. Maybe wake up earlier? Maybe decide TV will not be coming on - go right to the Bible. Start by spending 5mins a day. Then 10...then 15...eventually 1 hour. There's no shame in starting small. When I start weight lifting, I life ridiculously light, because my body is not yet trained to undergo a more intense workout. If I go too hard too soon, I burn out. It's just like that spiritually. If that muscle hasn't been trained, going too hard too soon would cause you burnout.
My prayers are with you Faithful. I am confident the Lord will lead you through this.
I hope this helps some...


-Chris