I just don't get it, I could gather all the evidence in the world like, shroud of turin, every book on Jesus, the Gospels and prayer, and my mind still manage to go left field. One day I'm strong in my faith, and the following day I'm lost and wondering if God is real. I was sooo strong in my faith so gun whole in my relationship with Jesus, then Ocd decided to latch on to the one thing I loved and that was my relationship with Jesus. Sometimes I just want to throw my phone, and punch walls, or bang my head because of the fustration. many times i say to myself ima just give up, and leave Christ alone, but then I think I love him and I dont want to go; and I know soon as I leave Christ, I am just going to be disturbed with something else...or its still going to be about Christ..What do I do, What do I do.....so ready to lay on the couch and die. Going to church, God Bless all.