I hate my life

[dantrong]

hi this is danny from australia. i honestly hate my life.
I feel so evil. Being a christian has made my ocd worse.
Before becoming a christian my ocd was already bad but once i accepted God i have been feeling more crap. So embarrassed to share the types of thoughts i get cause there so evil. One example is i have done something bad now someone in my family will die. Its like telling me God will punish me by doing causing bad to family members. I had stupid thought that something bad is going to happen to family member cause i walked past them.
This is how bad its become, i am not sure if its true.
If it is i will kill myself. No longer going to church. Christains are good people but they dont know what i am going through, there answer is pray, submit to God
Yeah right

 

[Hello There]

Hey Danny,
Trust me you are not alone, I have had similar problems I have had fears that God will punish my family if I do the wrong this etc. etc. The truth God does not work like this, you said:
"I had stupid thought that something bad is going to happen to family member cause i walked past them"
well really, there is absolutely no reason why God would do this and you probably realise this and that's how crippling OCD is, it twists reality.

Hang in there ;-)

 

[Ryskee182]

ya buddy hang in there it sounds like u need some meds and a good counsler. thats what helped me

 

[Mr.Cheese]

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[AmandaLynn1288]

Hey Danny! I'm so sorry with everything that you are going though. I kinda know how you feel... my OCD got worse when I became a Christian too. For a while, almost all of my symptoms had to do with my faith. You just have to stay strong and KNOW that God is who He is and remind yourself that those thoughts are not you or God... they are your OCD. I'll be praying for you okay! Take care & God bless! ~Amanda~

 

[Ruth~]

hi this is danny from australia. i honestly hate my life.
I feel so evil. Being a christian has made my ocd worse.
Before becoming a christian my ocd was already bad but once i accepted God i have been feeling more crap. So embarrassed to share the types of thoughts i get cause there so evil. One example is i have done something bad now someone in my family will die. Its like telling me God will punish me by doing causing bad to family members. I had stupid thought that something bad is going to happen to family member cause i walked past them.
This is how bad its become, i am not sure if its true.
If it is i will kill myself. No longer going to church. Christains are good people but they dont know what i am going through, there answer is pray, submit to God
Yeah right

I know what you mean. I hated my life before I found the right medicine. Have you thought of getting on medine for OCD. It can help a lot when you find the right one.

 

[Shubunkin]

It is true that God does not do things like that. He is truly an awesome and merciful God. Perhaps reading your Bible will help you to learn the truth, and get rid of those particular thoughts. I hope you can find the right doctor and/or medication to get you well. I will pray for you.

 

[chloeobrien]

*huge hugs to you my friend*

I wouldn't consider myself christian, and I'm not going to tell you to pray or turn to God. I believe everything can be worked through, but it may be tough and hard to work through but you can do it. No killing yourself over this now. I too have OCD... so I know how you feel. If you're up to it maybe try seeing a therapist but I know therapy isn't for everyone, just like religion isn't for everyone. Or try reading a book called Brain Lock...its an amazing book, it helps me with my OCD more than therapy does. or if you just want someone to talk to that understands I'm here for ya! Feel free to IM, OR PM, or E-MAIL anytime... just if you contact me outside of this site, let me know you're from this site.

Let me know if there is anything I can do to help you!

Chloe