I hate my life

[domi]

I never realy get bothered with this only once in a while when it comes up but..I was talking to my friend about people with speech disibiltes and he said that even though none of the people in his sunday school class have them realy badly that they learn to accept each others problems. Which is great. But most people in my school don't learn to accept my problem and well quite frankly it hurts more then anything you can posisbly immagine. I don't know why god has done this to me put me though speech pshcial theraphy and basicly everything therapy you could immage and made me suffer this much. IT's not like I'm in a whell chair or I can't walk and thank you god for that but it's basicly because well when I talk it sounds nasel and well I guess its's easy for people to pikc on and they do. everyday. And well..I cna't take it anymore. I don't want to go to the speech and laungue patholgist she scares me and I don't want to get help at home either. But I just want them to stop harassing me. EVen if i did get help the only thing that could be fixed would be how i prounce my rs andwell realy it's not th ebig deal and it wouln't make much difference.

I don' want to deal with this anymore..I just don't.

 

[goldenviolet]

domi i have mental health problems that affect my speech. ofcourse my thinking gets messed up occationally, but usually my brain is just fine. i completely understand the difference of how people treat me, because before my symptoms were obvious, i was very popular, looked up too etc. i'm a quite little mouse now (not here on CF ... but in person). i have learned to be a servant. being a servant has taught me to be a quite leader. God has plans for you. we all have a purpose. so in your discouragement, i hug you with a huge warmfuzzy

... blessings are around the corner, because our God is the God of peace and gives us joy. let this struggle be only a small part of your life. God has created many things for you as His chosen and blessed daughter.

 

[thenewageriseth]

Awww. you know, my parents occassionally say that I talk too fast, and I remember when I didn't talk at all. I have wondered if I should've gotten speech lessons because of the way I talk. Nowdays I try my best to slow down my speech and it is hard.
I try not to worry about it.

 

[domi]

I shoudl relay be doing my spanish hw right now but who cares..ti's just another launge I can misprounce LOL


thanks. It helps to undersatnd that well i'm not relay a nonpopular person behind my speech problems..and that when people are more mature i e after hs that i will gain more friends and become more confidnet. thanks so much for ur advice and i'm so sry about ur helath problems and speach disibity as well..I hear you

WARM FUZZY

domi i have mental health problems that affect my speech. ofcourse my thinking gets messed up occationally, but usually my brain is just fine. i completely understand the difference of how people treat me, because before my symptoms were obvious, i was very popular, looked up too etc. i'm a quite little mouse now (not here on CF ... but in person). i have learned to be a servant. being a servant has taught me to be a quite leader. God has plans for you. we all have a purpose. so in your discouragement, i hug you with a huge warmfuzzy

... blessings are around the corner, because our God is the God of peace and gives us joy. let this struggle be only a small part of your life. God has created many things for you as His chosen and blessed daughter.

 

[domi]

my parents say that too..hehe but i know that's because I do talk to fast lol allways.

Nah its probly just a matter of thinking about ur speech and paceing ur self..trust me dont' put ur self though that sort of torucher ..but then againd on't listen to me because I would never recomend it to anyone

Awww. you know, my parents occassionally say that I talk too fast, and I remember when I didn't talk at all. I have wondered if I should've gotten speech lessons because of the way I talk. Nowdays I try my best to slow down my speech and it is hard.
I try not to worry about it.

 

[OceanAngel]

I have mental health problems too and I know its not easy.

I talk fast too, I've noticed I can understand people who talk quickly too, I was having conversation with someone once and we were both taslking fast and a friend who was lisitening said she feels the need to lie down after listening as she felt tired out

 

[domi]

hehhe..i could so hear someone saying tha tto me..lol..I talk fast to when I get relay excited

I have mental health problems too and I know its not easy.

I talk fast too, I've noticed I can understand people who talk quickly too, I was having conversation with someone once and we were both taslking fast and a friend who was lisitening said she feels the need to lie down after listening as she felt tired out

 

[OceanAngel]

Me too and my voice gets higher as well.

 

[domi]

I don't know taht my voice gets higher when i'm excited but defanilty when i'm upset and i'm trying to hide it from people..

of coures it doesn't relay work becaue everyone I know has caught on to my little underhanded trick

 

[OceanAngel]

Yeah, my voice changes when I'm upset too and I've been told I get expression on my face that looks like I'm about to burst in tears(true) but my highly obseravent friends aint noticed that I'm getting upset, I've been told its an odd expression.

 

[domi]

well u can allways hope that they don't cath on

I ratehr people not know when i'm upset..it's wierd but that's the wya i am,.

 

[goldenviolet]

I shoudl relay be doing my spanish hw right now but who cares..ti's just another launge I can misprounce LOL


thanks. It helps to undersatnd that well i'm not relay a nonpopular person behind my speech problems..and that when people are more mature i e after hs that i will gain more friends and become more confidnet. thanks so much for ur advice and i'm so sry about ur helath problems and speach disibity as well..I hear you

WARM FUZZY

sweetheart, being popular in a quite way is much better. people don't count on you to prove yourself, look perfect, fit in the 'in' crowd, etc. you don't have to make yourself 'wonderful'... instead people seek you for you. your genuineness, love, thoughtfulness, humble heart, big arms and soft shoulders... ... because you are a wonderful and first fruit of God's own design!

 

[BOJAX]

Take it from someone who talks much like Mr. Bean. (and acts like him too). It is really a process that takes time to overcome, and practice. But it seems you're off to a good start in accepting it because you are able to laugh about it. Spend more time in Gods word. Accept who you are and accept the love of God. Recieve it.

 

[endless63]

Hey domi

I know some things you may be going through, when I was younger I had a stuttering problem or whatever you call it. Having this problem, I had hardly talked to ANYONE because I was just soo afraid to embarass myself because I would've just gotten tease. It did hurt. I was young and quite sensitive then. I was still living in the Philippines and there I was teased a lot and that's only when I was talking in my language..

When I moved to Australia.. that's when it got really tough and it was hard to make friends when I wouldn't talk and especially when I didn't know english at ALL. It was also hard for me to pronounce some english words and I had a very deep accent which I sometimes I got teased about.
When I was alone I would practise to overcome this problem and eventually it got better and I became more confident. I absolutely hated speeches. I hated it soo much i think I cried once when I was young lolz because I didn't want to a speech in grade 2. But now I still hate them.. but I don't mind doing them. Currently I'm doing advance english and extension english - it's great how books and reading aloud to yourself gets you.

I hate my life has crossed my mind MANY times and with a different reason.
But in the end - i really do love my life.

 

[Mayflower1]

I never realy get bothered with this only once in a while when it comes up but..I was talking to my friend about people with speech disibiltes and he said that even though none of the people in his sunday school class have them realy badly that they learn to accept each others problems. Which is great. But most people in my school don't learn to accept my problem and well quite frankly it hurts more then anything you can posisbly immagine. I don't know why god has done this to me put me though speech pshcial theraphy and basicly everything therapy you could immage and made me suffer this much. IT's not like I'm in a whell chair or I can't walk and thank you god for that but it's basicly because well when I talk it sounds nasel and well I guess its's easy for people to pikc on and they do. everyday. And well..I cna't take it anymore. I don't want to go to the speech and laungue patholgist she scares me and I don't want to get help at home either. But I just want them to stop harassing me. EVen if i did get help the only thing that could be fixed would be how i prounce my rs andwell realy it's not th ebig deal and it wouln't make much difference.

I don' want to deal with this anymore..I just don't.

Many times I have felt I couldn't keep going because life is just so tough. I have felt like no one could ever understand what I was going through, that everything is just so hopeless and I couldn't stand it. Not until I went to God and I prayed for strength and I asked Him to please help me to keep going, could I actually pick myself up again. I had dyslexia and speech problems when I was really young and I can't remember them now but as a cutter and one with depression, I know that it is hard when people just won't leave you alone and everything. You can't give up though. It is just another day. Life will always be hard but you can get through it. You just have to keep your head up and keep going. You WILL make it through for you are a child of God and He loves you!!! I will pray for you and I hope you just keep moving on because ur a good person. Everything will be okay. I am here for you. Best Wishes. Lily00

 

[stanneberg]

I don' want to deal with this anymore..I just don't.

I was moved by your post. People can be so stupid!

A couple of years ago I was flipping channels one Sunday morning. I stopped when I saw a man standing behind a pulpit trying to talk. He had the worst speech impediment on the air. I was struggling to understand him - but compelled to listen at the same time. Over and over he kept telling stories of the things he had been able to accomplish in his life with the help of the Lord. It was incredible! Near the end of the sermon, he looked dead into the camera and said: "I've got cerebral palsy, people! What's your problem?"

Here was a man who overcame his outward problem and allowed God to fill him with His Spirit for His purpose. His accomplishments put everyone to shame. His name was David Reign.

My encouragement to you: Give your voice to the Lord and see what He will give you to say. I know that the words of David Reign have haunted and challenged me. I will never forget them!

Great people throughout the scriptures were ordinary, imperfect people with the power of the Holy Spirit upon them. Why not add your name to the list?

You are in my prayers.

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[domi]

likewise

I'm not quite sure who David Regan is but I toltally concur with him and i'm so proudof that guy. If I was only half as good with my condition as he was with his ahh that would be great. I to have a mild ccase of Cerabral palsy but I'm sure his was worse. I have attended mutable yeras of psychical therapy in my childhood and speech theaphy adn well..I never over came the speech part comeplty but it's much better. BUt pshcical theraphy I finished in i think it was 3rd grade. I admire this man so much..god bless you for your post.

Domi

I was moved by your post. People can be so stupid!

A couple of years ago I was flipping channels one Sunday morning. I stopped when I saw a man standing behind a pulpit trying to talk. He had the worst speech impediment on the air. I was struggling to understand him - but compelled to listen at the same time. Over and over he kept telling stories of the things he had been able to accomplish in his life with the help of the Lord. It was incredible! Near the end of the sermon, he looked dead into the camera and said: "I've got cerebral palsy, people! What's your problem?"

Here was a man who overcame his outward problem and allowed God to fill him with His Spirit for His purpose. His accomplishments put everyone to shame. His name was David Reign.

My encouragement to you: Give your voice to the Lord and see what He will give you to say. I know that the words of David Reign have haunted and challenged me. I will never forget them!

Great people throughout the scriptures were ordinary, imperfect people with the power of the Holy Spirit upon them. Why not add your name to the list?

You are in my prayers.

Stephen Tanneberg

 

[domi]

Lilly endless..I admire you guys so much..thanks for ur help

sry i can only make so many long poasts in one day LOL

 

[suzybeezy]

I have some insight what you are going through. My two youngest boys (5 and 4) have to deal with all these therapist. Physical therapy, Occupational Therapy, Vision Therapy, Speech Therapy and Cognitive Education. It can be exhausting I'm sure. That doesn't count the daily obstacles will can sometimes drain you. I use to think that it wasn't right that my little ones have to deal with all this. But now I watch them and am amazed at how strong they've become and how much more appreciative we are for each and every accomplishment. God is using this for his will to be accomplished and I have to trust in that.

Yes going through this is an ordeal, but through these struggles God strengthens us.

My 5 year old has cerebral palsy and my 4 year old has developmental delays. My 5 year old takes the time to explain to other kids and adults about cerebral palsy. I overheard a kid say to him "Why do you walk funny?" He simply answered - "Because I have cerebral palsy and it makes it hard for me to walk". The kid accepted it and they continued playing. I am astonished sometimes at how well he's coping with this disorder. God could use him and you as an instrument for educating people. It's hard to see that now.

But sometimes its good to embrace our differences, because those differences are what make us special.

Sending a huge cyber hug your direction!

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Hi! I can relate a little bit. I had a really bad head injury when I was 14 and often slur my speech. Not tremendously bad or anything but enough to make "dog" sound like "duck." I hope things get better for you.